What do you do…
When you hear my name?
When you listen to my voice?
See my Face?
What do you feel?
What do you think?
What do you want to say?

What do I do?
When I hear your name, I think of your smile.
When I hear your voice, I smile myself.
When I see your face, I know what I feel.
I feel a love, deep in my heart.
I think what could have been, what can possibly become.
I want to say “I care about you, to the ends of the universe.”

But in the end,
When I hear your name, I think of how far away you are from me.
When I hear your voice, I hear the joy you have since I’m not around.
When I see your face, I think of the pain I will cause.
I feel a sadness, engulfing my heart.
I think only of what is not, and what it will never be.
I want to say “I feel like I can’t go on without you…”

So here I am alone,
Thinking to myself, with a conflict in my mind.
A battle in which my thoughts are the fighter, and there are no winners.
A life consumed by stress, only to sadden me more.
And I feel loneliness, a broken heart.
Thinking and crying about wishes that will never come true.
Wanting to say nothing, and be left to the tears that roll down my cheeks.