(hesitation)

By: LAELAH

darkness surrounds

the depths of my mind

where dreams and hopes

illuminate this entity

like pandora's box

there is a key

and demons

with hope stashed in the very bottom

though where that key is...

it's in my hand

in my mind

as my greatest fear

do i?

must i?

i don't want to yet i have to

wake up and live and forget...

i dismiss my dream

as another phantasm

of a fragment of a memory i had lost

or a never ending night terror haunting me still

...my hesitation

what is it that I had forgotten?

what was it that led me here?

i see a box in the nightstand and a key in the drawer

i take the key with the desire to open it

...but I stop

the peal of childlike laughter

rings in my ears

clear like the resonant bell

that will ring on my wedding day

this box

i suddenly can't remember...the purpose

as i stood here

perplexed

then a voice calls

my name

and a time

to where i have to be in an hour

hearing this

i drop the key

and dress in a hurry

unawares of what i left behind

...the key to what i'd forgotten

wrapped in a pretty pink box

was the hope i had when i was twelve

to dance as elegantly as a swan

and somewhere along the lines

a faint tune could be heard

pachelbel's canon in d

in music box form

it was as if my heart had been pulled

like the strings of a violin

as i fell to the ground with grateful tears

to remember the dream i erased

the hesitation of hope

is purposeful i guess

for i'm grateful

for both the song and the two arms locked in a comforting embrace

only in a dream

does pandora's box close

but this isn't a dream isn't it?

soft words melding into a song...

a lullaby to quell

even the deepest of fears

for what i gave up is

for someone i equally loved.