And nothing ever gets better
And nothing ever changes

And you really know how that trapped bird must have felt
Because you waste away in this room, trapped by the walls
And surrounded by the pictures of the world you'll never see
Pasted up on your wall

And your really stuck now without a means of escape
And your really scared now because you want to hurt yourself

And you wonder if you do if it will make the pain stop throbbing
And you wonder why these tears fall
Shouldn't this stuff not phase you anymore?

You've gotten so used to the petty thank you's
And the cold words
And the 'your doing this wrong's'…
And you've heard it all a million times
How you don't appreciate this

How can you appreciate something that hurts you so bad?

And something that steals away what little creativity you have left
And something that stings a bit more each time the band-aid is peeled off
Like the scabbed knees you used to get as a child

And your door is perpetually locked from the inside
Because your too afraid to leave and deal with all that fucking shit 'leaving' entails
And all you can do is feel the hot salty tears pour down your face
And your nose clog up and your nails bite into your skin as you hold yourself
Your only comfort

Blankly staring at the calendar and wishing you could flip the months over
But even if you did it wouldn't change anything
Because you are stuck here, slowly dying on the inside

And you wonder why the only things you ever feel anymore is that stinging
Humiliation and hurt
And you need to escape
Like nothing you've ever needed in your whole life

Even if the escape is just to your dream world
You need it
And just like that old child's nursery rhyme you wonder;

/Kago no naka no tori wa
Itsu itsu de deyaru/

The tiny bird in the cage
When will you come out?