AN: This is written about my friend. We have a purely platonic relationship and I do not wish it were anything more. I love him like I love a friend, and I can't stand to see him kill himself like he's is. Drugs are destroying him and I don't think he will graduate high school. Not the way he's going now.

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I love you so much,

More than you could ever know.

I love your skin,

And the color of your hair.

I love how crude you can get,

And how easy you act around me.

I love you, but at the same time you make me sick.

I hate you so much,

More than you could ever guess.

I hate how you let yourself fail,

I hate how you don’t even try.

You’re killing yourself,

And I hate that you don’t see it.

I hate you, but I could never stop loving you.