Chapter Twenty Eight

Dreaming Holds Certain Keys.

Sabrina

“Bri! No!” A voice screamed from somewhere in a deep darkness.

“Can you hear me Bri? It’s Saskia.” Another voice called. Everything was so dark I couldn’t understand what was going on, all I felt was a painful numbness, you’re wondering how feeling numb can be painful well think of a dull ache then add heartache that makes you numb, then that’s what a painful numbness is.

“It’s all my fault!” The first voice screamed jolting me. I recognised that voice and I understood the pain. I wanted to comfort her but my dull pain overwhelmed me and I could feel myself sinking.

“Maddie it’s not your fault” A low familiar voice said. “It’s not like you pushed her.”

“But how do you know?” Maddie (?) screamed as I felt myself stinking deeper and deeper. The voices were getting further away…the floated away while I sunk into it…into the mist. No! No not there! Anywhere but that misty place that I woke up from! Anywhere but there! Anywhere!

“SABRINA!”

I jolted awake as the piecing scream, the scream of my name, still rang in my ears. Breathing heavily I reached for the bedside lamp and flicked it on. My room filled with a low amber light as I tried to piece together my dream. Why had there been screaming and why was I sinking back into the mist, the one place I never wanted to return to?

I reached for my MacBook Pro from the end of my bed and flipped it open. Logging into my IM address I checked to see who was online. I was hoping Harriett was even though it was 3am. I hadn’t been able to talk to her since Diana had rung a few weeks ago asking if I wanted visit Kingsview for the summer. Neither my ‘Grandparents’ or Diana knew that this would be the first and last time I’d ever leave Scotland as I had no intention of returning once I was back in Kingsview. I had been desperate to go home ever since the mysterious dreams had started two weeks ago. I had thought I was finally going insane but I then thought that maybe they were telling me something. Maybe these dreams held clues to the life before the accident.

Harriett wasn’t online…but Tyler was. I hadn’t heard from him since he sent me the goodbye email and I still didn’t think I was strong enough to say something to him. He had hurt me but I realised that I did love him. It hurt, hurt more than the aches form my dreams. These dreams were getting more confusing as time went on and always involved screaming and darkness. Did these dreams hold the key to the accident?

Pushing thoughts of my dreams out my head I closed my MacBook Pro and thought about going back to sleep. I picked my iPod, switched it on and selected Ray LaMontagne’s Trouble albums as it had been helping me sleep recently.

I don’t know when I slipped back into my dreams but they were just as confusing once I woke up in the morning.

Tyler

Maddie caught me by the arm and stared fiercely into my eyes, the fire in them was burning so harshly at it scared me. “What?” I asked.

“She knows.” Maddie said. I knew instantly want she meant. I pushed her away and ran to find Sabrina before everything turned out worse than it already was…

“Look Sabrina I’m sorry that I lied to you!” I was suddenly shouting. How did I get outside Sabrina’s house?

“Sorry! Oh you’re sorry! That makes all the difference!” Sabrina was screaming, her hair blowing savagely in the light breeze. “So it doesn’t matter that my best friend stole my diary then lied to me, it doesn’t matter that her ‘boyfriend’ isn’t really her boyfriend but someone who I thought I was in love with. None of that matters because Tyler fucking Dawson is sorry! No! None of it matters because you’re sorry!” She was screaming.

“I am sorry! I know that it doesn’t change anything but I’m sorry! I’m sorry I lied to you, I’m sorry that Maddie lied to you! I’m sorry for every shitty thing I’ve ever done to you!” I shout over Sabrina’s screaming.

“You lied to me!” Sabrina started to scream over and over again. She carried on screaming until she collapsed on the steps of her building, when I ran over to her to help up she had disappeared and all I was left with was the lingering smell of her perfume.

My eyes flew open and took a moment to adjust to the darkness. It was odd, I’d really dreamed before, I’d just felt stuff and occasionally woke up hungry but these dreams were so vivid it was like I was there reliving shitty things that had happened over four months ago. To get rid of these dreams I’d tied getting drunk but my headaches were getting so bad that I stopped with the drinking all together, It had never me any good in the past so why should it now?

I flipped one my phone to look at the time and groaned when I saw that it was 8am, I had been planning to sleep most of the day then roll out of bed mid afternoon to get a shower and get dressed in tie to be dragged to this leavers meal the school was putting on tonight at the new French restaurant in Stourport. I really didn’t want to go as I’d have to see everyone from school but my parents were determined I go. I rolled over onto my stomach and tried to get back to sleep but from I couldn’t…great just great.