Chapter Thirty Four

A Storm of Memories

Sabrina

I had, had being the operative word here, been desperate to go back home. I’d been pining for Kingsview ever since I’d been sent (against my own free will) to Scotland (I’d easily fallen into the trap of thinking that living in Scotland would be boring, well it was because of where I’d been moved to, there is nothing there but big houses and a fancy Private school full of snobby bitches, but also there was my best friend so I suppose that has changed by view on things drastically) but now home didn’t feel quite right, it felt strange and foreign to me and I could not understand why. Hadn’t I been frantic over wanting to come home? I’d wanted to be in my own room, be at Kingsview Comp, be with my friends, heck I even missed the rain that was so evident in Kingsview but now, now none of that felt right. None of it felt right at all.

No-one here seemed to understand how I was feeling half the time; Diana blamed depression and now wanted me to speak to my doctor about some form of medication (I was so pleased about that!), Anna blamed Tyler (Big surprise there), Harriett blamed both Tyler and Maddie (Though she wouldn’t say much about the latter), Maddie blamed herself, Alex also blamed Tyler while Cassie and Saskia stayed out of it really more for their own safety than my happiness (Well at least they were honest when they told me that).

None of them understood that what I really needed were people to comprehend that I’ve been through a lot of shit and I just needed to get over it, plus I just wanted my newest best friend here but sadly that wasn’t going to happen any time soon as Ed’s parents had dragged him to the south of France for the remainder of the summer and once I was at college I doubted I’d have time to see him. Yeah that sucked more than anything else really.

It was Monday morning and the weather was slowly getting worse, three trees had gone down in the past few days and Diana could regularly be heard complaining about living in Kingsview. It was this Monday that I was running late and was quite annoyed that I’d over slept after another confusing dream. This one had been even worse than ones in the past as this one was nothing more than dark shadows and secrets, something that was hard to decipher.

I grabbed my iPhone off my bedside table while quickly whirling (yes whirling, I was in a rush) around my room getting dressed “Hey Maddie, I’ll be round yours in five minutes I promise.” I said into my phone as soon as Maddie picked up her phone, I pulled on a pair of jeans and a plain red t-shirt as Maddie grumbled. I ran into the kitchen and grabbed a cereal bar and my bag while Maddie complained loudly on the other end of the phone. I knew she was incredibly nervous and annoyed anyway as she planned to tell her parents and brother about her pregnancy before it became so obvious that they’d ask her straight out if she was either pregnant or just getting fat.

“Jesus Sabrina, you’re shit at time control.” Maddie said sounding really antsy. “I can’t hang around here forever!”

“Yeah I know I know so shoot me.” I laughed as I grabbed my door keys.

“I’ll take you up on that offer if you’re not careful, I’ll see you in five minutes.” Maddie said hanging up. I quickly scribbled a note to Diana telling her that I was going round to Maddie’s and I’d be back later. Making sure I had everything and that my new boots (Teal suede ankle boots that I brought last week on the oh so event shopping trip that resulted in me hiding in a TK Maxx changing room) were fully zippered up I went to the front door opening it but stopping short as I saw that someone was standing in front of me and looking very awkward.

“What do you want?” I snapped at Tyler. “How did you get up here anyway?” I asked.

“Can we please talk?” Tyler asked looking quite anxious; I noticed that his nails had been chewed beyond recognition so he was clearly nervous about being here, so he should be really.

“No and you didn’t answer my question. How did you get up here?” I snapped placing my phone back into my bag.

“Your neighbour was leaving and she held the door open for me.” Tyler said, I snorted and tried to walk past him “Sabrina this is ridiculous, we were fine until Harriett starting on me the other night.”

“No…no we were not ‘alright’, you sent me that stupid email and since then I got over you.” I snapped slightly lying but still he didn’t know that.

“Yeah really quickly as well…” Tyler muttered under his breath.

“Pardon?” I snapped.

“Your new boyfriend, you met him rather quickly…” Tyler said spitefully.

“Ed is not my boyfriend he’s my friend and if you’re asking about Justin then I’ll tell what happens after our date.” I snapped as I walked past Tyler and called for the lift.

“What?” Tyler snapped, I was happy to hear that I’d hit a nerve. “That preppy blonde twat you snogged at Harriett’s party”

“What the same party where you slept with my best friend?” I snapped.

“You’re going out with him?” Tyler asked ignoring what I’d just said.

“Yes I’m going on a date with Justin on Friday” I said becoming exasperated

“You’re…dating him?” Tyler asked. “What about us?” He then snapped.

“God can’t you just get over it already! There is no ‘us’! Even we had dated things would have still gone to shit because that was how things were meant to be now I don’t know how you can stand there after everything you’ve put both me, Maddie and Nicole through but can you please just leave me alone.” I said sighing.

“What I’ve put Maddie and Nicole through? Since when did you care about either of them?” Tyler asked laughing.

“Listen here. “ I snapped. “Maddie is one of my best friends and you acted like a bastard that night, sleeping with her then just ditching her. You lied behind Nicole’s back about me and played both of us off between one another, I don’t remember this but I have a diary and friends that will back this up now please just leave me alone!” I said giving up on waiting for the lift and walking towards the staircase.

“You know what I give up. You’re just a stubborn cow that can’t see when people care about you.” Tyler snapped. I whirled round and glared at him.

“A stubborn cow! I’m a stubborn cow? How dare you!” I cried. “How dare you!”

“Yes you are a stubborn cow! You won’t accept that people care about you-”

“No I don’t accept that you care about me because you don’t.” I interrupted.

“That’s a fucking lie Sabrina you know I care about you! More than care about you! I love you yet you don’t give a fuck because you’re a bitch!” Tyler snapped.

“Just go and leave me alone.” I snapped turning away from Tyler so I could leave already ignoring the fact that he had just said he loved me.

“I’m sorry, I’m sorry I said that, Sabrina just listen to me.” Tyler said grabbing for my arm.

“No I can’t you see that I can’t. I can’t stand here and listen to you telling me how much you care about me because if I stop for just one second I realise just how much I like you even after all the shit you’ve put me through and I can’t let that happen. I’m happy now, happy. I’ve got great friends and I’m going on a date, simple as!” I said trying to wrench my arm out of Tyler’s grasp.

“Why?” Tyler asked. “Why Sabrina?”

“Why what?” I snapped.

“Why are you deliberately trying to get over me and move on to your cousins’ preppy mate?” Tyler asked.

“Because you keep hurting me! You keep hurting me and I can’t deal with it anymore. I can’t be hurt anymore! There is too much going on in my life at the moment and I just can’t be hurt and I know Justin will never hurt me the way you have!” I snapped.

“But don’t you see that you’re hurting yourself by trying to deal with all of this” Tyler said.

“Yeah but I’m not the only one that keeps getting hurt!” I snapped

“Who, who keeps getting hurt?” Tyler said holding onto my arm in looking deeply into my eyes.

“Please…please just don’t do this to me Tyler.” I said pulling myself away from him.

“Why not Sabrina, really why not and who keeps getting hurt??” Tyler asked reaching for my arm again.

“Maddie! Maddie keeps getting hurt Tyler!” I snapped.

“Maddie? Why would I give a shit about Maddie?” Tyler asked making my blood boil under my skin.

“Because you bastard she’s pregnant ok! You got her pregnant!” I screamed pushing Tyler away from me.

“What?” Tyler gasped staring at me. His eye widened as the news sunk into his brain, the look on his face, the look over horror yet satisfaction as now Maddie was well and truly screwed over, made me sick.

“She’s four months pregnant! And it’s because of you!” I screamed.

“Sabrina…” Tyler tried said trying to pull me back towards him. I knew what he’d do; he’d pull me into a hug and crooned that everything would be aright. I couldn’t believe how much Tyler had changed since I’d first met him in that hospital, or maybe he’d always been like this and I was too blond to see it. “Sabrina please…”

“No! I don’t want to hear it!” I snapped snatching my arm away from his, as I did this the heel on one of my boots skidded slightly on the floor causing me to lose my (quite terrible) balance. I tired to grab for the banister but I was too far away from it. I lost my footing and fell backwards. The last thing I remember was smashing my head against the floor…then darkness…

Tyler

I tried to stop her from falling but Sabrina tumbled down a flight of stairs and bashed her head against the floor with a sickening crack. “Shit! Sabrina! Sabrina can you hear me? Can you hear me?” I said running down the staircase to Sabrina, she was laying face down not moving, I grabbed her wrist to see if I could feel a pulse and thank God I found one. “God disasters just seem to find you doesn’t it?” I said reaching for my phone.

Trying to not think about what Sabrina had just told me about Maddie was hard but I knew I had to keep my head clear. I grabbed my phone and dialled 999 and asked for an ambulance.

Maddie

“Dad!” I cried from the top stair. “Dad!”

“What is it Maddie?” Dad called from his study where he was working.

“Has the phone rung for me at all?” I asked. “Sabrina should have been half an hour ago and she’s still not here.”

“No I’m sorry angel; ring her on her phone if you’re worried.” Dad suggested.

“I have but she’s not answering.” I said with concern.

“I’m sure she’ll ring in a minute darling” Dad said.

“Yeah…” I mumbled. This wasn’t like Sabrina at all; new and old Sabrina never left her phone alone for more than thirty seconds encase she missed a call or a text. I flipped open my phone and tried ringing her for a second time but it simply rang out once again. I tried Harriett asked if she’d seen Sabrina at all today.

“No…why what’s up?” Harriett asked.

“I can’t get through to her and she was supposed to be at mine over thirty minutes ago.” I said starting to become quite worried.

“Don’t fret she’s probably just running late.” Harriett said trying to calm me down. “You know how she is with time management” Harriett said snorting.

“Yes but why wouldn’t she answer her phone?” I asked.

“That’s a mystery to me.” Harriett said unhelpfully.

“You’re so helpful” I said sarcastically. “Well if you get in touch with her can you please ask her where she is?” I asked Harriett.

“Yeah sure.” Harriett said as she hung up. Sighing I walked back into my room and flopped onto my bed. I flicked on my TV to pass the time and ended up watching an episode of Friends I’d seen about twelve million times before. It was half way through Monica and Chandlers wedding when there was a small knock on my door.

“About time!” I cried flinging the door open thinking it was Sabrina, instead it was my Dad holding the house phone with an odd look on his face.

“Maddie there’s someone on the phone for you. Didn’t give his name but it sounds urgent, is there anything you’d like to tell me?” Dad asked in a serious voice. I shook my head determined not to say anything or I’d go ahead and tell Dad everything. Dad sighed then handed me the phone.

“Hello?” I said as Dad walked back downstairs.

“Maddie?” Tyler asked, he sounded really desperate.

“Tyler? What do you want?” I snapped ready to cancel the call.

“Maddie its Sabrina-”

“What’s happened?” I asked suddenly alert.

“She’s in the hospital-”

“What happened?” I gasped. What has he done to her now?

“It’s best for you to come to the hospital.” Tyler said.

“What hell have you done to her? WHY IS MY BEST FRIEND IN THE HOSPITAL YOU ASSHOLE?” I screamed

“Maddie language!” I heard my mother yell from the bathroom.

“Tell me what’s happened!” I yelled into the phone, my screaming must have woken Rob up from his slumber (A pretty difficult task before midday actually) as he stuck his head round my door looking concerned.

“What’s happened?” Rob asked.

“TYLER DAWSON YOU ASS TELL ME WHAT HAPPENED!” Iyelled down the phone.

“Maddie just come to the hospital.” Tyler said hanging up.

“That bastard!” I screamed.

“Mads what is up?” Rob asked.

“That bastard!”

“Maddie! Language!” Mum yelled from the bathroom again.

“That so-and-so thinks….the damn….I hate him….Rob get your car, you’re diving me to the hospital!” I snapped grabbing my hoodie that hung over my bed.

“Ok-ay…” Rob said looking bewildered. “But you know I haven’t past my test yet…”

“I don’t care, you’re driving me to the hospital!” I snapped.

“Ok-ay…” Rob said again digging into his jeans pocket for his keys.

“Mum I’ll be back soon!” I called as I ran down the stairs, flipped open my phone and rang Diana knowing full well that she’ll most likely rip Tyler apart, something I’d love to whiteness.

“It’s always you! You always have something to do with an accident Sabrina gets involved with!” I shouted at Tyler as I stormed through the hospital hallway, Rob following behind me looking lost.

“I didn’t do anything and it was your fault she was hit by that damn bus so don’t start blaming me!” Tyler yelled back.

“My fault? My fault! If you hadn’t dicked Sabrina, me and Nicole around then we wouldn’t be in this situation at all!” I screamed causing people around us to stop and stare. “So I’m going to ask you one more time… what the hell happened to her?” I screamed louder. Before Tyler could answer this question I heard the familiar voices of both Anna and Diana Andrews.

“What on earth has happened this time?” Diana asked storming up to me, her eyes flashing about until they landed on Tyler. “You! What are you doing here?” She snapped. “And what has happened to my daughter?”

“Yeah that’s what I want to know as well!” I snapped.

“Me two!” Anna said glaring at Tyler. He cowered away from all three of us, unfortunately for us and fortunately for him he was saved by a nurse who asked to speak to Diana. Once her mother was out of sight Anna’s hands balled into fists and she punched Tyler straight in a arm.

“Ow! What was that for?” He snapped at the tempestuous thirteen year old.

“You’re always behind something to do with my sister now what you do this time? I bet you did something to her just because she has a date with Justin!” Anna snapped. A date with Justin? Alex’s preppy friend? Well that was news to me.

Sabrina, it turned out, had been knocked unconscious and we’d simply have to wait until she woke up to if there had been any effect on her already sluggish memory. It was a nightmare, a total nightmare that got worse when Harriett, Saskia and Cassie turned up with my parents (Rob had rung them to tell them what had happened). Tyler, the asshole, had decided that he needed to stay in the hospital to keep an eye on Sabrina seeing as this was his fault. Yeah…sitting in a room with the guy who got you pregnant, has no idea that he has got you pregnant though, as well as our parents, whom you were going to tell about said pregnancy that very day, is…it’s not fun at all. Tensions were running pretty high, I think Cassie was doing a sweep of the room to make sure there wasn’t anything sharp that Harriett or I could stab Tyler with. I was waiting for Alex to find out what had happened, once he was back from France he’d kick Tyler’s ass.

“Do you have to be here?” I snapped at Tyler for the seventh time in an hour. Anna was still too angry to say anything that wouldn’t make her mother go ‘Anna language!’ so she was keeping her mouth shut.

“Do you?” Tyler snapped back.

“I’m her best friend. What are you?” I said narrowing my eyes.

“Oh grow up Maddie.” Tyler hissed. Luckily my parents were sitting with Diana and Sabrina’s Aunt in the café getting much added coffee of they would have yelled at me for snapping at Tyler.

“Why don’t you!” I snapped.

“This is bullshit.” Tyler snapped. “Total bullshit” He mumbled.

“No, you’re total bullshit!” Anna snapped glaring at Tyler.

“Who asked you midget?” Tyler said snorting.

“Leave Anna alone” Harriett said.

“Oh I was waiting for you to get your two pennies in” Tyler said to Harriett.

“Fighting won’t solve anything!” Cassie said.

“No-one asked you blondie” Tyler hissed at Cassie.

“Out!” I snapped glaring at Tyler. “Get out of here now” I said standing up, Tyler did the same, also glaring at me. “Get out!” I said once again.

“Make me Maddie, come one and make me” He snapped.

“Maddie, Maddie leave him alone” Cassie said trying to get me to sit back down.

“What are you actually going to do Maddie? Seriously what can you do to me?” Tyler snapped.

“If you don’t get out of here I’m going to beat your ass to the ground.” I said fiercely. Tyler simply snorted.

“I’d love to see you try Maddie” He said.

“Fine” I snapped pushing him away from me and towards the door.

“I know ok! I know!” Tyler yelled as I pushed him out into the corridor, my head reeling and my blood boiling underneath my skin. Harriett, Saskia and Cassie quickly followed me, probably to stop me from killing him which I honestly was contemplating. It would be quite easy in a hospital…

“Know what?” I snapped I breathed deeply in and out.

“I know” Tyler said his eyes flickering to my stomach; I let out a small gasp.

“How?” I demanded to know.

“Sabrina told me” Tyler said, a small smirk rested on his lips. The bastard…

“What’s he talking about Mads?” Harriett asked appearing at my side.

“What you mean your friends don’t know?” Tyler asked mockingly.

“Know what Mads?” Cassie asked as she rested a hand on my arm.

“Maddie here is pregnant.” Tyler said grinning; he folded his arms across his chest and looked really pleased with himself.

“You bastard…” I hissed.

“What?” Harriett gasped. “Is he serious?”

“Maddie what's he on about?” Cassie asked.

“She’s four months pregnant.” Tyler said with a small smirk

“Get out of here!” I growled. “Get out of here now!” I screamed slapping Tyler across the face. Someone’s hand grabbed by wrist tightly, I looked up and saw the thunderous face of my mother glaring at me.

“Maddie a word.” She said pushing me along the corridor and out of ear shot of Harriett, Cassie and Tyler. “How could you be so stupid?” My mother snapped glaring at me. “Pregnant at your age! How could you?”

“I’m sorry!” I gabbled. “I’m really sorry, you think I wanted this to happen?”

“Why are you saying sorry to me? You haven’t ruined my life in anyway but you have certainly screwed up your own life.” My mother snapped. “Now you’re booking an appointment this instant.”

“An appointment?” I asked.

“An abortion.” My mother said calmly.

“I can’t…Mum I can’t…” I gasped.

“Maddie you‘re sixteen! You can’t have a baby at sixteen you’re irresponsible child!” My mother snapped. “How can you be so stupid?”

“I’m sorry! I’m sorry!” I cried as tears bubbled up inside me. “But I’m not getting rid of it Mum.”

“Well…well I know what you can do.” Mum said composing herself. “You can pack your bags and get out the house.” She snapped turning away from me. I froze as my mother’s words washed over me…she couldn’t do this to me could she? A mother couldn’t just kick her daughter out onto the streets because of a pregnancy. How could she be so cold?

“What! You’re kicking me out?” I cried. “You…you…you can’t!” I gasped. “You can’t do that!”

“I think you’ll find I can.” My mother said walking off. My head was spinning as I watched my mother walk away from me. She couldn’t do this! She just couldn’t!

“Mum! Mum! Mum you can’t! Mum!” I cried trying to run after her but she’d disappeared down a corridor and was nowhere to be seen. As I slid against a near wall trying to not let my tears fall footsteps approached me. I looked up through my tears to see Rob staring down at me. He didn’t say anything, he didn’t have to, but he did sit down next to me and then pulled me into a hug. That helped…kind of.

Rob and I sat there, not saying anything, for some time before my Dad came and found me. I tried to say I was sorry but he wouldn’t let me say it. He said that he wasn’t angry at all just slightly disappointed, that hurt more than being kicked out the house by Mum.

Sabrina

“Sabrina?” A panicked voice said. I recognised that voice…

“How is she?” Another voice asked. Aunt Suzanne? What was she doing here, wherever ‘here’ was?

“No change, the doctors want to carry out more tests because of her old head injury” The first voice said. Diana… “Another head injury.” She muttered in a low voice.

“God Di everything seems to happen to this one doesn’t it? She deserves some happiness for once” Aunt Suzanne said. “What happen exactly?” She asked. I strained to listen, desperate to know what had happened as well.

“That boy brought her in saying she fell down the apartment stairs.” Diana said sounding very aggravated. That boy? Who could ‘that boy’ be? “He says that it was an accident and that she slipped on her heel.”

“Are you sure that’s what happened?” Aunt Suzanne asked.

“I’m not sure what to think anymore…I don’t know how much my baby can cope with.” Diana mumbled, her voice sounded thick, like she was choking back tears.

“Forget what she can cope with, what about you? This can’t be easy on you at all. At least you haven’t told Mum or she’ll have Sabrina move back up with her.” Aunt Suzanne said.

“I can’t put Sabrina through that again, she was miserable in Scotland.”

“She couldn’t have been too miserable as Mum never said anything” Aunt Suzanne said.

“That’s because she never saw her, apparently according to Dad Sabrina spent most of her time round the neighbours; they have a son the same age as Sabrina.” Diana said in a small voice. “Sabrina never stops talking about him…”

“Ahh…I said when she was born she’d break a few hearts.” Aunt Suzanne laughed.

“Suze I don’t want to see her get her heart broken again. I just want my baby girl back Suze.” Diana said.

“I know Di, I know…” Aunt Suzanne said. I wanted to wake up so badly and hug them both. I wanted to promise them I’d never get my heart broken again because I knew it would hurt them as much as it hurt me. Their voices drifted away as I fell back asleep and the pain subsided. It felt like an eternity until I heard more voices.

“How long has she been out?” a teenage girl asked. Harriett…Harriett my third best friend after…Ed and…Maddie…I think…

“A few hours, Diana’s going mental. I think she’s gone to get another drink before she loses it. Is Tyler definitely out the building cause I think if Diana sees him again she’ll beat him to a pulp.” Someone else said…Saskia? She mentioned Tyler…Tyler…Tyler? Why would she mention him? When was the last time I saw Tyler?

“Yeah he’s gone. Could Di really beat him to a pulp?” Harriett asked.

“She does Pilates so I’m guessing she could.” Saskia said. “Where’s Fertile Myrtle?” she asked. Fertile Myrtle? Who was that? What had I missed?

“Maddie? She’s talking to her Dad, I think he’s going to try and get her mum to see reason, Carol wants to kill her though.” Harriett said. Oh Maddie…why would they want to kill Maddie? What had been going on?

“At least now we know why she’s been acting weird.” Saskia said.

“Yeah but how could she do this to Bri? It’s going to freak her out.” Harriett said.

“Harri have you ever thought that she might lose her memory again because of this.” Saskia said in a low voice. Wait…what were they talking about? Had that ever happened?

“Don’t say that Sask” Harriett said, her voice sounded far off like she was walking out a door or something.

“I’m just saying!” Saskia said following Harriett…I was alone…

My head ached as I desperately tried to wake up without screaming. Pain followed through my veins causing me to silently weep, my legs felts stiff and my chest felt tight, compressed. After what felt like years and years I wrenched open my eyes, daring myself not to cry with pain. All I could see was bright white lights…I am I in heaven? I thought stupidly. No I couldn’t be, I could feel my heart beat against my ribcage…plus there were no clouds or Jesus. If I was in heaven I’d certainly see Jesus.

I blinked and looked around, the room was empty, well it was empty of people but full of flowers. White lilies, my favourite sat next to my bed filling my nostrils with the familiar scent, the scent was joined by the smell of lavender, my second favourite but there was another smell that hung in the air that I knew so well, the smell of Chanel No.5, the perfume that wasn’t only my perfume but hers as well…. This scene felt familiar, very familiar…I glanced towards the door…

“Sabrina?” That voice, it was the voice. I tore my eyes away from the flowers to see a boy sitting at the end of my bed. Golden brown hair and an excited expression that was masking an underlying expression of sorrow. The window behind him showed what appeared to be the start of a storm but I wasn’t bothered by that. I looked hungrily at the owner of voice, who was he? I needed to know. I stared straight into his eyes and he realised that I was indeed awake. He leapt fluidly out of his seat. “Oh crap!” He cried, he raced to the side of my bed and pressed a button next to me.

No…not that which was in the past. I didn’t want to remember that…I wanted to remember her. The owner of the perfume. Her blonde hair stylishly pulled up, her smart suits that I used to wear with my sister when we pretended to be posh business women, baking cookies when I was seven and realising I was a better cook than her. A woman that only wanted what was best for me and had been sitting by my bedside desperately praying for her daughter to wake up…

“Sabrina?” Someone gasped from the doorway, the blonde hair, the light blue luncheon dress she’d worn that morning…It was her. Joy elated me, it didn’t matter that I was lying in a hospital bed at all; I leapt out of the bed and could have cried because I knew her. I knew the woman standing there staring at me.

“Mummy” I gasped running towards the woman standing in my doorway staring at me.

“Sabrina? Oh Thank the Lord!” She gasped, I threw myself at her, nearly knocking her over, and wrapped my arms around her. She was really here, she smelt just like she always had, a mixture of Chanel, soap and hairspray. Here was the woman who had raised me for nearly seventeen years, the woman who had held me tightly and told me it would be ok when my Dad left, the woman who had swooned over Brad Pitt in Meet Joe Black with me, she had brought me my very first bottle of perfume, my first pair of heels and my first bible. She was my mother…my mother.

“Mummy I’ve missed you.” I said as I hugged her tightly. “I’ve missed you so much!” I cried.

“Sabrina?” She asked pulling away from and staring into my eyes, she looked at them hungrily like she could never stop looking at my tear stained face. “Oh Sabrina! Oh baby!” She cried pulling me into a crushing hug. “Oh baby I’ve missed you, I’ve missed you” Mum said sobbing.

So there we go. I’ve found myself, well I’ve always known things about myself; I know that I am 5’4ft and 130lbs. I have blonde hair that is the bane of my existence and that my mother really cannot cook but is a dead ringer for Bridget Bardot.

Things I didn’t know where that the person I used to be madly in love with was a total jerk that would break my heart. I didn’t know that I felt such complex emotions. I never thought I’d find friends that I’d go to the end of the world for.

I never knew just how much I loved Kingsview.

Well now that I’ve found myself I guess there’s not much else to tell you.

Wait…you want to know about what happened after all this? Seriously? You want to know about Maddie and the baby? About my date with Justin and if any of us actually get into college? Well tell you what I’ll get Maddie to explain some of that…I might put my two pennies in as well…