Author: gnitleinad PM
a litany of verbs and symbols, with a lot of deep meaning.Rated: Fiction K - Spanish - Mystery/Spiritual - Chapters: 2 - Words: 676 - Published: 05-18-09 - Status: Complete - id: 2674189
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This poem exemplifies many of my experiences in dealing with God or people. It was written at the spur of the moment, so not everything makes complete sense. It's also why I chose not to tag people. :) Both stanzas are different parties - I've tried to symbolize this by using capitals in the latter and omitting them in the former. The origin of this poem was the litany of verbs (though yes, some are modified) in the first stanza.
So on the level of dealing God, the first stanza is almost inexplicably the feeling of guilt on the side of the sinner. I'll look at some of the more ambiguous words. "specify" - confession is a matter of speaking the same word (Greek: homologaeo), so the man asks for light so he knows what to confess. "too terrified to mollify" - guilt creates a distance. "objectify" - the sinner is asking for concrete items like righteousness and holiness, rather than the person of Christ Himself. "pacify" - so he can have peace, not so much peace with God, but just inner peace; ultimately these are the same thing in experience, but the context and goal differ. The second stanza is basically what God speaks. "Crimson" - God is offended because God is not sin and has nothing to do with it. "Scarlet" - But we have an Advocate with the Father (1 John) and His blood speaks on our behalf (Hebrews). "Rose" - So we love because He first loved us. (1 John) "Try" - Having revealed the process to come back to Him, He beckons the man to apply it. He speaks nothing of the sin.
There is another very different interpretation that would work as well.
First stanza is for person X, second stanza is for person Y. X is aware that Y is angry at him for some reason, but isn't sure why. The first time it strikes him that Y is angry, he is horrified, and wishes Y would specify the reason. But to do this requires a form of appeasement (aka mollifying); not just appeasement per se with each other, but enough for them to talk it out. X is morbidly afraid to take that step. "objectify" could take on a few different meanings. X could just dismiss it as: Object 1, one of Y's 'pointless fits of anger'; or, Object 2, he could be telling Y to demote the cause of offense to something of the past...something we do when we try and say, "I'm not the same guy who made you mad and caused you all the trouble etc...I've changed." There is desperation here, and his goal is that Y be pacified. Y's response is to be mean. Crimson, scarlet and rose would then be phases that Y goes through. Why? He is either in denial, or he's trying to cover something up. Or it could very well be that X is not forthcoming enough and he has no clue. "Try" is the steel wall of "you can try to make me happy, but it's not happening." In one case, this could be real, but in another, this could be a conversation in someone's imagination - the offender could be picturing the scenario in the second stanza to be true, reinforcing his fear in the first stanza.
Besides the fun with the litany of verbs, I wrote this poem out of very real fears that I have of certain people. But as you can see, this is why I like poems. Sometimes a thought or emotion comes, and it carries with it a great deal of baggage. Catharsis must happen, and the poem can be my vehicle if there is no need for self-expression in the midst of the 'cleansing ritual' (definition of catharsis). It is quite remarkable how much can go on in your mind in just a matter of moments.
I also feel like I'm back in Literature class.