If I had the power to turn the hands of time,

Would I use it even though I’ll still make the same mistakes?

Do I watch as my regrets turn into grime?

Allow them to suffocate me until every part of my body aches?

If I begged for another chance, would my pleas go ignored?

Do I lose faith in everything

Or will my hopes be reassured?

Would my prayers fall to deaf ears?

Would a little light get me through?

Or will the darkness consume me and confirm my fears?

If I search hard enough will I find you?

If I cried more, would my sorrow eventually drown?

Or will I just drown in my sorrow?

Do I really need to plan ahead

If I don’t want to see tomorrow?

In my dreams you are here

But when I open my eyes you disappear.

Maybe you’re standing right beside me…

And I just can’t feel you near

My delusions let me touch you

But sanity reminds me it’s just mockery

So I’ll remain in my lonely corner, with nothing to do

But wait until someone comes for me

Though I don’t want help from anyone…

And even if someone did come

I doubt I can bear to see another ray of sun,

Or another twinkling star,

My memories act like webs

That trap me to a dirty wall

So in turn I’ll wear my insides out,

Hoping that maybe a spider will take a bite or two as he crawls

And find its way to my heart

Though I doubt it still exists

I'd end all of this if I was smart

For I have no need to ride it out

Yet, no energy to slit my wrists

My chances are gone,

My goals have been stalled,

I reach out, but nothing is ever there to hold me up

And the further I fall,

The harder it is the climb back up,

No one can hear me, so I don't make a sound,

Instead I sink,

Hoping I’ll hurry up and reach the ground…