What would have happened if I had said yes?

What would have happened

If I had gone with you?

What would have happened

I were living with you right now?

Would my life be different?

Would I not be in the place I am in now?

Would I miss the wrong person?

Would I have mad a mistake?

I don’t seem to know anymore

Because it’s too late.

The deadline has passed me long by

And it’s too late.

Because it two months I’ll be on my own.

In two months

I’ll be living with strangers.

I’ll be experiencing new thing,

I’ll have a fresh new start

With people I don’t know,

In an area I am not familiar with.

I wonder what would have happened

If I had stayed with you

Instead of go somewhere where

I feel even less than welcome.

It’s not my home.

It’s not my life.

Where do I belong?

I have no home.

I have no life.

Where do I go from here?

Do I go forward

Or

Do I act like a chicken and hide in the corner?

What should I do?

You’re the only person

That can answer this question.

You have been there for me when you could

And when you couldn’t

You stayed as far away as you could get.

I want to know what I should do with my life.

I can’t answer the question.

It’s too hard for me to make on my own.

Should I be all I can be?

Or do I become like you and run away

From everything good in my life

And not face my dreams?

Please.

Help me.

It’s one question that needs to be answered.

And I can’t do it on my own.

Please.

I need my daddy.