I'm lying through my teeth for you
taking the words that you've given me
and cutting up my heart with them.
I love you both too much to drop my mask
but just imagine if I didn't-
you would know what it was to be me
you would know
just how much I hurt
every time you talk about how

goddamn happy she makes you.

I wish I could hate you.
I wish I could cut you up
as much as you've shredded me.
I wish I could tell you that
my smile is made of glass
and how much my eyes burn
with unshed tears.