"Look...I'm sorry Lulu." I sobbed, burying my head in her chest.

"Don't worry babe, chicks before dicks remember?" She said soothingly, trying to comfort me.

"I love you to bits Ashlee" I sniffled.

"I love you too CheyChey" she smiled softly.

I was really really sorry, I was in the best position I could be in at that moment, but I just HAD to screw it up. I missed my auntie, even though she kept threatening to kick me out, it would be better than this. I didn't miss my father though, we was an animal.

FLAAAASHBACK -

"Say you're sorry!" Dad shouted.

"I HAVE THOUGH IM SORRY DAD IM SORRY!" I screamed helplessly.

"Don't fucking shout at ME!" He shouted "I'm your father!"

"I weren't" I said, and sighed.

"YOU WERE! Defenseless little whore." He spat in my face.

"Paul... Stop it." Mum started to say.

"No Charlotte, stop interfering." He ushered her away with his hand, she was scared shitless.

"Dad, just stop it now please" I begged, cringing at the scars and bruises on my body. He hit me again, then again and then started smashing up the living room. I was screaming. Mum came through from the kitchen and Dad threw several heavy objects at her.

"FUCK! DAD GET OUT!" I screamed at him and tried to get him off my mother.

"AH!" My mother screamed as several shards of glass were caught in her back. He had always had violent rages but this was the worst one yet.

"DAAAD!"

"STOP IT!"

"GET OFF!"

"GET OUT"

"STOP!"

I ran after them as he went into the kitchen with mum, and at the door I froze, I knew my mother was dead in the kitchen, I wasn't going to go in. I could honestly smell the blood. I ran out to the nearest phone booth, because my mobile was in the kitchen and was broken because Dad had threw it anyway. I dialled 999 and was explaining what had happened when I heard Dad, running behind me, coming to get me. I screamed and quickly shouted the address and then ran. I ran all the way down my street crying. My mother was dead, and there was nothing I could do about it. I found my aunties house and explained what had happened, half the things I said didn't make sense because I was panting and crying. I wanted my mother... Just some need noone could EVER fulfill.

I loved her so much. She was gone.

I broke down in my aunties house and pulled half my hair out.

"Why me... WHY!?" I screamed. "I HATE HIM!!!!!"

"Alright but don't get mud on the carpet - I had just hoovered up" My auntie said - stubborn bitch.

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I was so sorry about hurting Lulu. Derek was probably pissed and will try to make it up to her tomorrow, and at the moment I didn't care about Daniel. I cared about my bestfriend.