high school doesn't prepare you for college,

it's a jump,

a big jump,

and i can't handle it,

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i'm crying because i think i'm not going to pass my first exam,

and there's no one there to comfort me,

nothing but a desk,

a cold, hard phone,

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no reassuring words,

no one loves me enough to tell me it'll be okay,

this is about life,

testing the waters,

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no one is there for me,

so much work,

and i'm only beginning,

i can't imagine more of this,

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less time, more classes,

God, i want to scream,

how could you give me more that i can't handle?

why'd you let me choose this career?

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you knew it would be hard,

do you like playing games with me?

taking everything i have away from me?

i wish i never did this,

silence is the only thing that accompanies me,

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and my endless, broken sobs,

people pass by without a sound,

i stop, listen,

no one cares about me enough to come closer,

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i start again,

more than one reason to cry,

do i need another?

nothing is worth this,

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i'm not going to finish on time,

i'm failing,

i'm falling,

i can see the zeroes already,

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i wish i had a normal life,

i wish i had a normal life,

and this the easier college,

now i feel just stupid,

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why did my sister have to get all a's?

i can't live up to their standards,

i can't do anything,

i can't do anything,

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right,

someone come and hug me,

i feel so cold,

so empty,

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emotionless computer,

i wish i had a lecture,

then i could feel the warmth,

maybe then someone would care,

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you're lives are so simple,

i want your troubles,

can you take some of mine?

i want to throw the textbook across the room,

/0/

but then i'll have to go get it,

save me, save me,

can you help me?

no one's answering,

/0/

does anyone want me?

this is a mess,

i wish i would just quit,

this is ruining my summer,

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i want to be outside,

i've got no plans,

i've got no friends,

they've dropped me for no reason,

/0/

i knew it was coming,

but did it have to be when i needed them?

why can't someone catch me?

this is worse than before,

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how am i supposed to remember all of this?

i can't POSSIBLY remember all of this,

how is everyone able to pass?

why does everyone have to be better?

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i feel so inferior,

why do you have to be so good?

you already have a job,

get out of here,

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the solution would be to just walk away,

i can't breathe,

i can't breathe,

someone come and rescue me,

/0/

i can't solve anything,

why am i so helpless?

why am i so lonely?

i wanna just go to sleep,

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but i'm afraid i'll never wake up,

i don't want to wake up,

my heart sinks,

knowing this is my first unit,

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i can't go on,

i see failure in the future,

why did you take so long to answer?

it feels like you still don't care,

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you're my last chance,

the only person that makes me feel alright,

i really want to feel like i can do this,

but i feel it in my bones tonight,

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that i can't.