16/06/2009 01:43:00

She sat in bed, listening

As the hot salty tears silently rolled down her face for the thousandth time

It was the same argument they always had

She listened to them argue about how

"Y'all should just go back home if it's gonna be like this all the time."

or "I can't take it. I can't take feeling like I made such a big mistake

and I'm such a disappointment all the time."

Truth is, she didn't mean to do it

She didn't mean to make her parents so unhappy

She wished that she could be perfect and that everything would be ok

But it wasn't

She knew she shouldn't complain about living in California all the time

But she couldn't help it

She was mad and angry

And if she was honest with herself, depressed

She didn't want to be in California

She resented her dad for taking the job

But she couldn't do anything about it

She could only hope that one day

Everything would fall into place

And everything would be ok

She didn't think that would ever happen

But she could hope