Thinking of You

He said I was cute. He said I was nice. He said he liked me. He made me happy. I’m glad we met, him and I. I don’t know his name, it was just a quick meeting and I guess I forgot to ask. I can be forgetful sometimes.

Still, I’d like to believe we’ll meet again. I hope we do because I’ve got a bit of a crush on him. He said one day he’d like to come back here. I hope when he does he’ll come and find me. I’d like to believe he will.

Even if he doesn’t though, even if we never meet again, he was the sweetest guy I’ve ever met and if that’s not true, then I don’t want to know the truth even if it kills me in the end.

He was a lovely boy with beautiful dirty blonde hair, red tinted highlights running through it. His dark green eyes shined brightly in the afternoon sun. He was from England he told me. I still remember that part clearly.

I wonder if he’s thinking about me still too. I hope he is. I hope he never forgets me.

A small giggle parted my lips; he was the sugar in my chocolate, the sprinkles on my cupcake, and the cherry on my ice cream. He was what made the sweets taste good. That was my philosophy for it. I liked guys like that. They made things more fun. They made me happy.

Guys like that were rare though. Most guys want to use you then dump you like yesterday’s styles. It didn’t matter though; I like guys who were sweet, care for you even if they do use you in the end. Most guys use you and it’s obvious that’s what they intend to do. Love just makes you blind to that until it’s too late.

It’s okay though; heart break is something you can get over in time though it may take just a little while. So I don’t mind heart break. I never want to regret something that once made me happy because then I would end up even more upset then I would be otherwise.

I suppose I’m too lenient. Many people, most of my friends, would instantly be upset and regret it all. They would blame their selves or act like they’ll never get over it. The world isn’t ending though it may feel like it for just a while. It’ll be okay though, the world will keep going and you’ll meet someone new, someone hopefully better. That’s how I like to think. It gives me hope to get over the pain and move on to something better.

This time though, I don’t think I’ll be getting over it too soon. This boy had been far too sweet and much more then words could ever explain. He was wonderful, beautiful in my eyes. I really like him and I do want to meet him again.

No, I don’t want to just meet him again; I want to spend time with him and learn so much more about him and his life. I just hope I get the chance to one day.

Little ideas, and plans, and fantasies play out in my mind. All of them sound nice but many are very unrealistic. I guess not everything has to be realistic though, right? Girls like me are free to dream and play around with our minds and hearts. I see nothing wrong with that, do you?

I love playing with ideas and fantasies, they make me happy. You never know which form of happiness or fantasy might come true. Even if some of those ideas are very unrealistic. You never know, you can never sure. The world, love works in strange ways. A miracle could happen at any time. A dream could come true right now. Nothing is stopping it.

Still, for now I’ll sit here and wait. I’ll have conversations, meet nice people, and meet some really rude ones. I’ll get hurt and I’ll find happiness. I’ll make new friends a few new enemies too. Until the day I find someone who will always be there, who will never hurt me, someone who is worth it all and so much more. That’s who I want to wait forever for.

Its okay if you want to call them silly childish dreams they make me happy and in a long run that’s all that matters. If you really look at it you’ll see that waiting is better then kissing someone who isn’t worth it and the person who is worth it sees. Well, then you may have just missed out on someone who’s great! Someone who is absolutely worth it, someone who honestly cares and you just missed him.

I would rather wait then have that happen. At the same time though, I don’t want to sit around and do something. So in the mean time I’ll work hard and try my best to make those I meet happy. No matter who they are, I’ll make them happy and maybe I’ll meet prince charming. Who knows, maybe it’s the cutie from earlier.