It is funny
how different I can be.
When I'm talking with you,
with you,
I can breath...
I want to live life
for every moment it gives me.
When I'm away however,
lets just say...
thoughts of falls, jumps, and blood
fill my mind.
Ropes...knives...anything...
if it can take away my life.
But I don't every want you
to know that.
You shouldn't have to know
that the one you love,
that makes you happy,
that makes you laugh in this
miserable life...
has sucidal tendencies.
Has had them for...
as long as thoughts
have spun in her head.
Before she met you,
her freedom.
You should never have to know
that sometimes...
thoughts go too far...
That's why when I say
'I'd die for you.'
with a serious look on my face,
You have to believe it...
Because you seem to be
my only reason to live.
But you shouldn't have to
know that.