You're missing
I'm lost.
Time has passed with the winds,
Drifting by unnoticed
But my thoughts are still with you.
And though my memory is almost gone
The times we shared faded,
Your vibrant eyes
And thunderous laughter
Will always remain.
The little things I remember,
But remembering is like salt in a wound.
Our poolside escapades,
Dancing in the darkened brilliant lights…
This lack of you is painful
And guilt plagues me like a swarm of bees
Buzzing, whispering, making me remember.
Because I blame myself for these lost thoughts,
The memories that I've let slip away
So carelessly into oblivion.
Am I so terrible for holding off torture?
For pushing away the tears that come
Whenever the vision of your face makes my stomach drop
And my knees weak?
It still hurts to know you're gone.
The boy I first kissed
Now only a phantom of a memory.
Broken, stolen
Tossed like a rag doll into the abyss
I hope you're resting in peace
Because I'm in pieces without you.