I wake up in the morning to the memory of her face,

Right before I open my eyes I smell her skin on my pillow case.

I can feel her warm breath on my neck,

Then my alarm goes off time for a reality check!

My bed’s so cold but my body’s hot,

I act like I’m OK but I’m not.

I have bad dreams all night and sad thoughts all day,

It’s been months and the pain still won’t go away.

I hide it well but my happiness is fake,

I don’t know how much more I can take.

I thought if I waited long enough it’d all be OK,

I thought if I smoked enough it’d all go away.

I really thought I could beat it but this heart ache is here to stay,

But please don’t doubt I love you, I’m doing the best I can.

I just hope you don’t expect instant recovery after all I’m only human.

I know you’re tryin to help but it’s unfathomably hard.

I can’t just “get over it” there’s no get out of pain free card.

I’m sorry I’m still tryin not to miss her.

At least I don’t love her…anymore.

Well it’s not easy to hang on with a broken heart.

It’s painful to stand on strength that’s been torn apart.

It’s terrible to walk away from someone I really wanted.

It’s impossible to dream of her all night and not look haunted.

It’s all I can do right now to hold my head up high.

It still amazes me that I fall asleep before I cry.

I’m doing my best to let you see me smile.

I’m working hard to walk that extra mile.

It took you a long time to ten your wounds,

And you spent many nights starin at the moon.

How can you expect me to feel better so soon?

My scars run deep and my minds’ outta wack.

Hang on a little longer I’ve almost found my way back.

Please try to understand I can’t quietly accept this fate.

I will recover I promise and I’m sorry you have to wait.

I’m so tired I feel like I’ve been shot.

I know you want me to be ready but I’m not.

Please just hold my hand and tell me it’s OK.

I promise I’ll be myself again someday.

You said you can understand the shit with which I’m dealin,

So please be patient love…I’m healing…

A/N: I can’t remember what girl this is to so let’s just say it’s to all the girls I lost and all the girls that loved me while I was hurting. R/R laters!!!

~Sexy Sammy

Love, Luck, and Lollypops ;)