Dylan,

I'm sorry about how I treated you before I started dating Kevin. I know I shouldn't have, but I did. I was a jealous bitch and I shouldn’t have been. My actions almost made me lose you as a precious friend. You are one of the few people I actually feel that I can trust. No other guys, at any age, wanted to be my friend. They all thought I was ugly, rude, stuck up, and bossy. They, unlike you, didn't look deep enough to see that there was a lonely girl who was terrified to death of the new environment she was in. It actually makes me cry tears of joy to know that you became my friend. I cry tears of joy as I type this because what I made us go through didn't lose our friendship, but in my eyes, made it stronger. If we can withstand something like that, then I think we can, as friends, withstand anything.

I also type this to let you know that I may still have these feelings for you, but I will move on and search for other guys. I won’t stay the way I am right now, being what you called ‘obsessed’. I was actually, in all truth, just acting the way that a shy, scared, hormonal girl would have. I know now that I was acting like a 13-year-old again. I should start acting like I’m 16, but I simply can’t, I’m too much of a child. I always will be a child at heart, no matter what happens. Only you bring out that energetic child in me. That’s what I find special about you.

Anyway, I feel that I’ve rambled for a little too long at this point. But now you know everything that was going on inside my head then and now. If this makes think differently of me, then I understand. If you still think the same way of me after reading this, then I’m glad nothing has changed between us.

See you next year!

Your good friend,

Jennifer Rose Kantrowitz

P.S. yes, this means that I will accept almost any girl that you choose to go out with.