So There’s This Guy

There’s this guy I know, he’s one of my closest friends. I think out of all of my friends he would be one of the few to be there with me until the end. One day I made a horrible mistake; something that I know one day might cause my heart to surely break.

How cliché was it to fall for my own best friend? I think he really knew but never said a word about it to me. One day it came up in a conversation while he was talking about this girl that wouldn’t go out with him because she didn’t want to hurt her best friend. That was the first night I somewhat told him how I felt. I said, “Yeah, I’m that best friend.”

We talked for a while after that and the next day we were completely normal, like nothing had ever happened. We still hung out and talked and eventually got closer as friends. My feelings for him had yet to diminish, yet I watched as he dated girls on and off.

Quite a few of my friends knew how I felt and they were shocked. Never had I been so hung up on a guy for so long. Honestly, I can tell you that I trust him with anything and everything. He’s not a person I have to hide things from…He is one person who really knows how I feel. I don’t put on a façade around him, blocking off my emotions. Believe me, it’s not use, I’ve tried.

The school year continued like normal and we finished it, the good times and the bad. Over the summer we continued to keep in touch, sometimes he would stop by my work and we would hang out. Then came the day he said he was moving…a whole eight hours away!

As him and I talked about it our secrets gradually bubbled up to the surface and were let loose. Mainly I listened to what he had to say, saying I accepted him no matter what. That day I wanted to tell him so bad how I really felt, but I was a coward.

Soon, we planned a trip together. He was going with me and a few people to wait in line until midnight for the sixth Harry Potter movie. That night we all had a blast. We went shopping, got some candy, stole a book (don’t ask), and snuck it all into the theater, whilst skipping everyone in line because of my early tickets! That night I also had the full intention of telling him my feelings. …that intention was shattered when I learned that he had a girlfriend. I just kept quiet about what I was going to say and let the night go by without a hitch.

A couple of days later I couldn’t take it anymore. I knew that I wouldn’t feel right until I told and guess what? I actually went through with it. I told him exactly how I felt and even though he might not have felt exactly the same we promised to stay friends. It’s better than nothing in my opinion. I don’t want to lose him as a friend; I mean really, that’s happening too much nowadays.

He knows how I feel, he always has I think. Maybe one day it could happen…I don’t know really, but this one thing baffles me, why after all this time do I still like him so much? Why can’t I get over him?

A/N: Yeah, um this was a little tale of what I was feeling for this guy. Sad thing is...I'm still not over it. :P SUCKS.