I woke up from a night mare, my hands shook and my hair was plastered to my cheeks by tears. I looked around the room, searching for comfort for him.

He was no where to be found.

Oh god, I needed him to hold me. The nightmare was too scary, to horrible and frightening. My hands shook violently still, and my throat closed around my heart as I took a breath. The silent tears ran down my cheeks, and I struggled to push the hair away from my eyes.

More then anything right now, I just needed him to hug me. Tell me its ok, and kiss me and sleep there holding me so no bad dreams came again.

I laid back down in bed again, my arms hugging my self.

I curled up into a ball, and closed my eyes-the threatening nightmares appeared again. It was like a picture reel, the horrible nightmare happening again and a again with no end. I clenched my eyes shut tighter, I pictured him in my mind. His amazing smile, bright eyes and bed head hair. It was perfect, I pictured him hugging me and kissing me and holding me tight-Away from all the nightmares.

My shivers stopped, and my tears slowly shed less.

I knew I was slipping out of consciences and back into a dream, but I didn't care-this time I knew it wouldn't be one I would be afraid of.

It was raining, pouring so loudly it would drown out any surrounding sounds. He didn't care though, we stood under the porch and watched the rain. He hugged me tightly and kissed my forehead, rubbing my arms so I was warm.

"I love you" he said, "With all my heart."

I leaned my head against his chest, and I heard his heart beating steadily. "What if you meet someone else?" I asked quietly, he laughed softly and raised my chin so I would meet his eyes.

"There is no one else for me, it won't ever change" he said and kissed me softly. "You won't leave me?" I asked.

"No, I will never leave you-I promise." He replied.

I kissed him again, the rain seemed to fade away but I knew it was still there.

"I love you with every inch of me, more then the world and anything in it" I told him.

He smiled and kissed my forehead, "I'll always be here" he whispered in my ear.

I closed my eyes and held onto him tightly as he put his chin on the top of my head and rubbed my back. "I'll always be here" the words echoed around me, as the scene faded out.

"No-No come back!" I yelled out, groping desperately for the memory.

I sat up straight in bed, and reached to try to find him again. He wasn't there, I needed him to hug me now. I would have to wait, I knew. It made me sad sometimes, when I needed him here with me now. I just needed him to hold me, and just lay in bed with me. And make those promises, like he did before.

I knew I would see him again, but sometimes I felt like…if I could give everything else I knew up-and go to him. I would do it in a heart beat, but I never told him that.

I knew he would think it's foolish, but it was true.

If I could take in anything that harmed him, into my self so it never would-I would do that in a heartbeat as well. He wouldn't want that, I know.

I stood up from bed, and went over to the window. Rain beat against the sill softly, and I placed my hand against the cool glass. The feeling was amazing, it always was.

The rain took me away, back to the memory each time I closed my eyes.

If I couldn't have him here with me tonight, I would have the memory as a dream once more. Until he finally was here.

I walked to my bed, and the dream came back. It stopped at the point where I leaned my head against his chest.

I could hear his heart beating.

I would have that feeling again, I didn't know when or where.

I knew that I would though, somehow.