This song was written 16 June 2009.

Pushing You Away (In My Arms)

Looking back
Our lives were so simple
Laughing about
The stupidest things
Now I know
That life isn't that easy
Without you
I'm falling apart

Holding you-
Is painful at night
Knowing that you-
Don't want to be with me
Hearing you-
Cry alone in the dark
Tears me apart
'Cause you don't feel at home - in my arms

I wonder when
We became so distant
How was it
That you moved on without me
Now I know
That I can't live without you
I regret letting go
falling apart

Holding you-
Is painful at night
Knowing that you-
Don't want to be with me
Hearing you-
Cry alone in the dark
Tears me apart
'Cause you don't feel at home - in my arms

I'm sick and tired of missing you
I can't stand to hold onto this feeling
That's eating me up inside
I can't find my way out
I miss having you to shout at
And blame all my problems on you

Looking back
Our lives were so simple
Laughing about
The stupidest things
Now I know
That I pushed you away
Without you
I'm falling apart

Holding you-
Is painful at night
Knowing that you-
Don't want to be with me
Hearing you-
Cry alone in the dark
Tears me apart
'Cause you don't feel at home - in my arms

I wrote this originally with no hidden meanings around it, but then life gave this song more meaning then I would have liked. It seems that most of my old works are easier to relate to now.