Grade School Bully Asking For Forgiveness

All throughout grade school

You had the audacity to tease, beat up and berate me.

Do you know how many days I went home and cried wondering why?

I’m still really not over it.

So when I bumped into you lately,

Who could you dare say to me

I’m going into the ministry

And we’re supposed to ask to be forgiven

For all our past sins

Do you forgive me?

I said something along the lines of

“Uhmm….alright….ok…..I forgive you…I suppose.”

“Great” he said and ran off

I never saw him again

(that’s good luck)

But, what I wanted I didn’t get

I wanted to yell at him

Hit him too

Berate and mock

Never stopping

I wanted to make him feel

What I felt

But, no

All I said

Was

“Uhmm….alright….ok…..I forgive you…I suppose.”

Truth is

I don’t forgive him

And I probably never will

He beat me up

Emotionally and physically abused me

All throughout grade school

A ten second apology doesn’t cover all of that