When I was young my mother told me,

“sex is supposed to be between you and the man you love.”

I believed her,

until I turned ten and was flooded with gossip and porn.

What she said became a joke.

Even after I fell in love with you,

it was a joke,

until I left you.

I haven’t been able to fall in love again,

yet.

And every time I fuck,

I long,

with all of my heart,

to make love.