Another day goes by

But I don’t feel any different

Thoughts of change are a joke at best

Everything’s the same

Stuck in a rut

The pattern’s oh so predictable

Its happened once again

Slowly losing all that I once had

While I’m stuck in this hell hole

Alone and on my own

Lost and scared

There are those who say these are the best years of our lives

Yet I seem to be slipping further and further from happiness

Everything’s falling apart

I’m staring at the stars as I pray for things to get better

But deep down inside I know nothing’s gonna change

The worst of it is the one thing that kept me holding on,

The one thing that made me believe in something better

The one thing that motivated me to try harder

Is slowly slipping out of my grasp and soon will be gone

And I will never forget …….

I’ll never be able to leave this place

So here I sit

Steadying my hand so I can write

Keeping records of these thoughts and feelings

The only way to remind myself that I used to feel

I used to feel alive