Author: Charmingly Temporary PM
He'll never remember what I wish I could forget. For CWRated: Fiction K+ - English - Hurt/Comfort/Drama - Words: 275 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 10-22-09 - Status: Complete - id: 2733689
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A/N: Written for CW Club. Prompt: something you wish you could say to someone.
You were my everything, in that way you were my nothing at all. In that way I fought for you, so you could give up on me. How you assured me we could still be friends in that tone that said "no way in Hell". Well maybe Hell is where I'm heading for what I thought of you then.
I wonder that if you had seen me standing there, if you still would have kissed her. Or if perhaps you did notice me afterall, and felt the need to remind me of your spite. How you told me I deserved this, without deserving you.
Apologies, though I did nothing wrong. Pleading "forgive me, forgive me", the way I forgave you. "Forgive me, forgive me", but you chose to forget me. Now the only thing I'm sorry for is that I'm not sorry.
I guess you don't think about how it was a year ago. How I was head-over-heels in crush, listening to you talk about those pretty girls who never gave you a chance. The interest was so genuine, so unattainable to me. Even in the end I never truly gained it.
But you have her, and I have him. Though she got what I chased after for three long years, I cannot feel any hate. It was you who taught me how bad that can hurt. And I taught you everything else. How to speak, how to touch. And most of all, how to walk away from me without turning back.