The fall from Grace

You want to know a personal event in my life? Well you’re lucky, because I’m in a storytelling mood right now. The event of my life that I’m going to talk about is something deeply important to me. I suppose you could call it a love story, perhaps, or perhaps not. It all depends on your feelings about these kinds of things.

It all began last year, around February time if I remember right. Two thousand and eight was a very eventful year for me to say the very least. It’s also a year I’ll never forget, that I’m sure of with all my heart. I said goodbye to so many good friends, and I welcomed so many new people into my life. One of those new people left a mark in my heart, and it’s her I’m going to talk about.

At the time I wasn’t in the best frame of mind. I had just finished high school and I was missing a lot of my friends. Everyone goes their separate ways in the end, but it’s still sad, you know? One of my most trusted friends noticed how sad I was feeling and he introduced me to a girl. Her name was Laura, and unknown to me at the time, that girl would be a very important part of my life for months to come.

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She was one of those people that I naturally seemed to get on with. She was kind, caring and really fun. Not to mention her slightly insane but wonderful personality. After about a month of been with her my life changed for the better. I hadn’t been this happy in a very long time, and I honestly believed with all my heart that I was happy with her. That was before circumstances took a dramatic change.

Everyone has two sides, good and bad, light and dark, angelic and demonic. Even though I was blind to it at the time, this girl was just the same as every other out there. Another good friend warned me to be careful, and that was my ex girlfriend if I’m honest, but I was so sure of things I didn’t listen. Lexy was warning me, and I blocked her out like she was some kind of horrific noise to the ears.

Despite what I thought at first, Laura wasn’t a very genuine person at all. She was heavily influenced by other people and it was very rare to actually see her expressing her true self. Even though she claimed to care her mind was always somewhere else, like she was never really content with what she had to begin with.

Laura, how can I describe her? Well, from my impressions of her at the time I honestly thought she was a radiant Brunette Beauty, with a heart of pure gold. Turns out I was very wrong indeed.

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As for Lexy, well, I could talk about her so much. I’ve known her for almost 3 full years after all. There aren’t many girls like her in the world. Well, there will be, but I haven’t found any yet. She’s one of a kind in my eyes.

As for the way she looked, well she had gorgeous red hair and deep, soul piercing brown eyes. She was a very pale girl but that didn’t bother me. She always doubted her looks, but I didn’t, not for a single second. She was wonderful to me in every way. Her heart was in the right place, she was always willing to help me out if I needed something, no matter where I was, or the time of day, if Lexy could manage it, she would be there, by any means necessary.

When Laura went away it was Lexy that stood by me and helped me get through this insane and quite painful twist of events. This scenario is proof enough to me that even if someone seems nice on the outside, what could be lurking deep within is a very different story sometimes.

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Laura appeared to be a kind and honest person at first, but when push came to shove that wasn’t the case at all. I couldn’t rely on her, and that would be the downfall of my relationship in the end. When the ‘battle’ was over, Lexy was there to pick me up off the ground. The girl always loved me, and it was stupid of me to deny that like I did. She was a genuine person that I could trust. Her intentions were clear, and she made her own choices in life, regardless of other people’s opinions.

Laura Michelle Rawson came, she ‘claimed’ to love me and then she left. It seems that the trail of sadness and broken memories she left behind didn’t matter to her She made her choice and left, without any regard to the consequences of her actions. She was like that so often it made my head spin.

Alexandria Carver, known as Lexy by me, was a true selfless angel. No matter how many times we argued and broke up over the years we would always find our way back to each other. She cared about me back then, and she still cares about me now. Ask me honestly if I regret meeting Lexy or not, my answer to you will be no. Three years have passed since I met her, and despite all the sad moments, I don’t regret meeting her at all.

I could say more, but I think I’ve said more than enough now. This was my story, and if you’re one of the lucky few who heard it, don’t forget it. These words on the paper can fade, but memories can last forever.

Treasure them, always.

Written by: Adam S Maw