I write

And write

And

Write.

Why?

It’s the only way I can handle the feelings in my heart.

The only thing I believe in is God

That it’s not his fault why my life is so grey

That it’s not his fault for all the pain I have in me

It’s not his fault

It’s my own fault

I’m the one who lead me from everything

Everyone tried to protect me

I ignored everyone for the sake of one person

I learned

Hard

And

Painfully

I believe God will take me away one day

He’ll save me from all of these

I don’t believe in heaven or hell

I just know God will take me away somewhere

Someday

He’ll save me

And all this pain

All this memory

All of this

Will disappear

And

That’s all I’ve wanted.