You asked for such a small thing, such a little thing,

But I was scared, because to me it seemed such a problem.

You just wanted to know how they felt about you.

So did I, but I had no strength of heart to face them.

You've been asking for so long, Just wanting to know.

I never knew how much it meant to you, but still I didn't answer.

To stand up to the ones I love, for the one I love, It tore me apart inside.

Why must the people I find so difficult to talk to, be the ones who raised me?

I said nothing for a while, my mind was in turmoil,

I wanted to know, yet I was freightened of the answer,

I wanted to stand up and speak, but I sat in silence.

I wanted to be brave, but instead I tortured myself with cowardice.

I told you I was going to do it, going to get it other with,

But doubt still plagued my mind, breaking my resolve.

I told you I would not be suprised to find you angry,

If I returned to you empty handed, as I went for answers.

But I didn't. Instead, I sat there still, my mind breaking.

I told you I was still there, sitting without answers.

You asked me why I still sat without answers.

I told you I was scared of what the answers would be.

I told you the answer that would break me, hurt me.

You said that it wouldn't matter, because they can't change me.

You were right, They can't change me, so I gathered my heart,

And I prepared to face my fears, and find the answer...

I didn't. I couldn't do it. I was afraid, even though I shouldn't be.

I sat there, in silence, my mind swiftly shattering down.

I hated myself, I hated my cowardice, I hated how hard I found it.

It was just a simple question, but lt broke me down, and I wept.

Why did I find it so difficult? What was holding me back?

You wanted to know what they thought of you, to ease your mind,

But I was scared of the answer, which still lies unknown,

I was afraid. I was scared, I was a coward. That's not what I want to be.

It seemed so silent for so long, yet my mind screamed.

How could I be the one for you? My mind was screaming.

Why is it so hard? My mind was screaming.

You deserve better than me, suffering in my own self-hatred.

My mind was screaming, my mouth was silent.

My heart was hurting, my eyes like waterfalls.

I abandoned my hopes, and threw myself to darkness.

Still I sat, leaving you behind, Forgotten as I suffered.

My suffering was so great, I left you behind.

My suffering was pathetic, As was I.

I finally spoke up again, but remained in my suffering.

I told you, I don't have your answer.

I told you, I was to weak to seek it.

I told you, I was broken by cowardice.

I told you, You deserve someone better.

Shadows danced in the darkness of my mind.

Ghosts seemed to break from the walls.

I sat and stared, afraid, confused and angry.

The demons in my mind broke through, and mocked me.

Their words were true, I am pathetic.

Their taunts were real, I am a coward.

Their words were true, I hated myself.

Their words were true, You deserve better.

I sat in my silence, still suffering, as those demons plagued my mind.

I wanted you to throw me away, I almost wished it, because I was hurt.

I could not stand up for you, just for an answer to a simple question.

I sat in my silence, and wept as I waited for your reply, my mind shattered.

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You said it was okay...

I told you it wasn't. I told you I hated myself, because I was a coward.

You said not to hate myself...

I told you I couldn't help it, I was angered by my own patheticness.

You said you didn't want me to hate myself...

You said you loved me...

I snapped. I asked you the questions that I didn't want to.

I questioned you, still weeping as I asked questions that I didn't want to.

The questions were breaking me, because they were proving my cowardice

I asked you how you could love me?

I had no guts to ask how my parents felt about you, yet I had the nerve to question you.

I asked you how you could love me?

You told me I was a great guy...

You told me we all have flaws and fears...

You told me you could never hate me for being me...

You told me this, yet still my darkness tortured me.

I told you I sat in the corner.

I told you I was crying.

I told you that I still hated myself, and my cowardice.

I asked if you could ever still love someone so pathetic.

You said yes...

You said no matter what...

You said you'd always love me...

You said yes...

But still, my darkness tortured me.

Still, I wanted to know How?

Still, I wanted to know Why?

Still, my darkness tortured me.

You said you loved me...

You said you would, through it all...

You said we'd both have our ups and downs...

You said you'd be there for them all...

My darkness was weak, but still it had strength.

It asked one final question.

I said I don't deserve you, I said I never did and ever will.

My darkness asked, How am I so special?

You said it was destiny...

You said maybe it was something greater...

You said we were meant to be...

You told me what should give me comfort...

My darkness died, It could not be bested.

Yet, my mind still felt broken.

The Ghosts in the walls still danced.

The Shadows of my mind still plagued me.

Even with you there, I said I felt alone...

It didn't feel real, I said I felt alone...

It was the truth, I said I felt alone...

I shouldn't have felt that way, but I said I felt alone...

You said I'm not alone...

You said I'm never alone...

You said your heart is with me...

You said I'm not alone...

A light broke into the shadows of my mind.

Yet still, I tried to run.

I said I'm still a coward.

I said I'm still pathetic.

I said I still hate myself.

You said I'm not a coward.

You said I'm not pathetic.

You said don't hate myself.

As the light caught up with my shadows,

It made one last gesture of sorrow.

One last doubt it wanted casted.

I was doubtful, I wondered If we could survive waiting so long.

I was afraid, I said I was scared I would drive you away.

You said we can...

You said we will...

You said I'm not driving you away...

You said I would never drive you away...

The shadow was embraced for falling...

It didn't.

The light picked it up, and embraced it.

You and Me, Light and Dark...

I was happy.

I was hopefull.

I was in love.

I was better.

I said you were my angel...

I said you saved me...

The shadows asked, how could I ever return the favour.

The light said to the shadows, that just being here with me was enough.

The shadow smiled, and embraced the light.

I love you, forever and always.

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You asked for such a small thing, such a little thing,

But I was scared, because to me it seemed such a problem.

You just wanted to know how they felt about you.

So did I, but I had no strength of heart to face them.

But that was then.

I still don't have the answer, but soon I will...

One bad moment to another, we'll be there for each other.

Thanks for making me love, and feel loved.

^vwv^