I told myself you didn’t mean it

So did you, but I couldn’t believe

Cause you stayed the same and so did I

I’m not so easy to deceive

.

The ice conquered my eyes

And I saw you turn away

I cried and I dreamt

Wondering what you’d say

.

You were nice as always

But I couldn’t feel at ease

And finally you screamed

Telling me this should cease

.

I didn’t want to understand why you left

I was always told I wasn’t enough

And when you left me to cry alone

I knew I could never have love

.

So when you came back around

I couldn’t open the door to rejection

Afraid you wouldn’t like what you found

That you saw me and changed your mind

.

You left and I gripped the blade

I didn’t know you went home to cry

All I could feel was this blinding hate

That made me wish I could die

.

You found me as I lay in my blood

You tainted yourself, stepping in my pain

And the tears that you shed

Made me wonder if you were insane

.

You carried me to health

And I hated you for it

I never understood why you felt

That you had the right to help

.

And even though no words were said

I thought you’d found a way to lie

And I told you not to cry for my death

Because no one cared for my life

.

But you smiled through your tears

When my eyes opened to your love

And you begged me to stay alive

Until I knew I was enough