|To Prove I Love You
Author: ZaXo Ken'Ichi PM
Eleanor has messed up the most important part of her life. She feels that what went wrong was completely her fault. Therefore, Ele has come up with what she believes is the perfect plan to fix everything. Psychological Thriller WARNING: Suicide Attempt...Rated: Fiction T - English - Tragedy/Romance - Words: 3,867 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 12-01-09 - Status: Complete - id: 2747381
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I randomly came up with this idea literally all at once while watching a music video... that strangely had absolutely nothing to do with anything like this. I really hope you enjoy it. I put it into this category by the way, because in my opinion, it is a psychological thriller. And it's rated Teen because I think (and have been told) that it's borderline Teen/Mature, but closer to Teen. Anything in italics is a flashback by the way. Happy Reading :)
To Prove I Love You:
Eleanor sat over the sink in her kitchen, memories of the recent past racing through her head. She stared at her reflection in the window, yet she was too deep in thought to actually see it. She could feel her heartbeat pulsing all the way up into her throat. She swallowed hard, trying to concentrate on what she had to do. Eleanor had a goal in mind and no longer wanted to look back. She was determined to finish this whole thing, and finally be back with the man she loved. It all had been so hard on her, such a strong blow, as sudden as a strike of lightning. This wasn't what she wanted, what anyone would want, so she changed her priorities. Eleanor promised herself that she would find a way back to him… and she now knew how to do so.
"Whew, we're finally almost back home," Eleanor sighed to herself in relief, as she sped around a corner in her ancient compact car. It was now nearly midnight. The moon wasn't out that night, so the only light on the road came from the headlights and the stars.
"So Ele, did you like the movie tonight?" a boy in her passenger's seat asked casually.
"Yeah, it was actually pretty good, though I thought Marrice Wallard almost ruined it. Her acting was horrible!"
"Yeah, I guess. I still think she's cute though." he said sarcastically, giving her a soft smile.
"You would Kai. But I'm still prettier right?" Eleanor joked with her boyfriend.
"Of course you are Ele. You're the most beautiful girl in the entire world. No joke," Kai answered, grabbing her hand that now lay on the armrest. Eleanor took a moment to glance at him, both of them happy to have been able to do something special for the one year anniversary of their relationship. They lived in a small town about an hour and a half from any form of any entertainment. But this was obviously a special occasion, so they decided they should pull out all the stops.
Eleanor smiled at the thought of them holding hands. That was Kai's favorite thing to do. He had never attempted to pressure her into anything like her past boyfriends. He wanted to take things slowly, positive that they would be together forever if they didn't go to fast early in the relationship. She liked that about him. She felt safe with him, yet he never smothered her. She had time to herself when she wanted it. She could make her own decisions when she needed. She liked the freedom, yet this strangely only brought her closer into his arms. She trusted him to make the right choices if she requested help with something.
Obviously they were very close then, even after only a years' time, which admittedly went by rather quickly. So how did things change so quickly? Why when everything was going so great did it all have to fall apart? It was so unfair. It seemed as if Eleanor was just getting to know the deeper, sensitive side of Kai, when it was all taken away. As she stood in her home, pain emanating from her injuries, she wondered what either of them had done to deserve this. "What did I do? What did he do?! I just don't understand," she sobbed quietly in frustration.
Eleanor and Kai simply sat in blissful silence while she drove the wide, winding corners of the deserted road. They had taken a back road around the mountains so that they could enjoy the simplicity of the world.
"Funny how things quickly become more complicated," Eleanor joked in disgust before delving back into the memory.
"Eleanor, I was wondering… Do you really love me like you say you do?" Kai asked nervously. He didn't think she was lying, he just wasn't sure that she knew what love was. He was unsure whether he really loved her as well. They were still young after all. All too often did young couples dive in and claim to love one another when they didn't really understand the strength of the feeling behind the word.
Somehow Ele knew exactly what he was getting at. She had been thinking about the same thing as well. She was just about to ask about it when he brought it up first. "I don't know for sure…" Eleanor paused, thinking for a second. "You know what? I can't really answer that. I have stronger feelings for you than I have had for anyone else, but if this isn't love, I can't wait to see how absolutely amazing it feels to truly fall for you," she finished.
They once again sat in silence, thinking deeply about the relationship they were in. The car hit a small bump in the road, causing the shoddy radio to turn on, static flooding the blissful quiet. Ele looked down at the dash in slight annoyance. This type of thing happened all the time in her old car. She really needed to get a new one, but didn't have the money. The car was old enough that there were no lights on the center console. Her frustration grew as she searched for the volume knob. Suddenly, she heard Kai gasp and yell her name.
"Ele, watch out!!!"
In her quest to turn off the radio, Eleanor had neglected to watch the road. They were now barreling towards a rock twice the size of the car at fifty miles an hour. It must have rolled down the mountainside to take rest in the middle of the road. It was big enough to take up both lanes, so there was really no way around it. Ele hit the brakes as hard as she could, attempting to stop the car. She thought about reaching for the parking brake, but thought it safer to keep her hands on the wheel.
It was clearly too late to stop the car, and they both braced for impact. "Hold on tig-" Ele tried to yell, but the car hit another small rock in the road. The back wheels popped off the asphalt for a split second before landing again. This caused the vehicle to veer off course slightly and hit the outer edge of the boulder instead. Being the old car that it was, the glue on the windshield came apart quite easily, sending the glass screen flying out into the field on the side of the road. Eleanor's airbag failed to go off and her seatbelt ripped, sending her into the air. She hurtled out of the empty hole where the windshield once was, flying inches over the top of a lower section of the rock.
Everything was in extreme slow motion as she flew through the air. Her mind was racing so fast that she couldn't catch a single thought as it passed her by. After what seemed like an eternity, Eleanor landed legs first on the hard ground and rolled quite a ways, before finally coming to a stop. The only thing that softened her blow was the thick grass covering the ground. The young girl looked up at the stars for a couple of seconds before passing out.
Ele shivered as she thought of it all. If only she hadn't cared about the stupid radio, they might have stopped in time. Likewise, had she bought the neighbors car she had been looking at, it may have fared better in the accident. That was the only car she could afford, but she was saving up for something special for Kai. She was going to pay for the music classes he dreamed of taking. But now that didn't matter much. Again she slowly started losing herself in the past, thinking back to when she finally came to…
Eleanor gradually opened her eyes, pain searing through her body. For a second she was thrust into confusion about what was happening, before finally remembering everything. She suddenly started to panic, wondering how badly she was hurt. It was good that she wasn't dead, but was she bleeding to death and didn't know it? Were her bones broken, preventing her from getting any help? Not many people went along this road. The boulder could have even been there for a week or more, so what was stopping her from being stuck where she was for that long or longer? By then she would be sure to have died.
Gently, Ele started trying to move around, expecting the pain to become unbearable, or one of her limbs to be missing. To her great surprise, she could move her legs and arms. They were all there, and none of them seemed to be broken. She felt a fair amount of pain as she attempted to get up, but still, nothing seemed to be seriously wrong with her… at least nothing that she knew of. The girl still had internal injuries and such to worry about, but simply worrying would get her nowhere. She had to do something. Then she remembered that she wasn't alone in the accident... Kai.
Ele slowly got herself back on her feet. She could feel minor bruising across her whole body, but she was able to walk without too much trouble. She could see the car a couple dozen feet away, the only remaining headlight casting shadows on the huge rock in the road. As she hobbled hurriedly to the crash sight, she stumbled on the windshield, which was now cracked in quite a few places. Eleanor searched her pockets for her cell-phone, hoping that she would find it. No luck, so she continued back up to the car.
As she got closer, she could see something, or someone still in the passenger's seat. "Kai!" Eleanor choked, speeding up as much as she could. When she was close enough to see him in the low light, her stomach turned over. There in the seat was her beloved boyfriend, but he was now slumped down, his head on the dash. Ele turned away, holding back her body's automatic response to get sick. When she felt well enough to face the scene, the frightened young woman walked closer to the car. If there was any chance in the world that Kai was alive, she had to find her cell-phone. She just hoped it was in the car.
Eleanor ran up to her car door, which was slightly crumpled. However, she could still get it open, as the angle the car hit the rock crushed the driver's side much less than the passenger's. The car was still running barely, struggling to keep alive. The cab light flickered on when she opened her door, looking down into her seat. No phone… She tried hard not to look at the body next to her as she searched that side of the car completely. But it was no use. She couldn't resist.
From the light she had, it seemed that his side of the car had performed as designed. His airbag had gone off, and his seatbelt stayed whole. Still, it looked as if he was no longer breathing. Eleanor saw a faint glimmer on his forehead, which she realized was blood. Her stomach lurched again. "No…" the young girl whispered to herself, and started crying. She looked away, and continued searching for the cell-phone with tears streaming down her face. After a few more minutes, it was nowhere to be found. Her phone was gone. It was possibly Kai's only chance at survival... if he was still alive that is.
Ele frantically searched the ground around the car, and what little of the field that the single working headlight lit up. Her phone was probably somewhere in the grass, never to be found. She looked back at the car, glancing at Kai. The most important person in her life was in there, and she could do nothing about it. She decided that it was best to find where she was. Eleanor looked for a sign on the side of the road, noticing one a few yards up from the accident site. She went to the correct side of it, and read, "Carter Valley: Three Miles."
"That's what I'll do! I'm so close to home, I've got to run!" Ele shouted. If she could get to town fast enough, she could get help for Kai. She now noticed that the sleeve to her shirt was hanging off, ripped in the accident. Eleanor ripped it the rest of the way off, and tossed it on the ground next to the sign. She then turned and began to run towards the town. 'After all, how hard could it be to go three miles?' she thought to herself.
"What a stupid idea…" Ele whimpered, now breaking down completely again. It was much harder than she had thought. She really had no chance of getting there on time. So now she had another solution. If she couldn't save Kai, she would join him in death.
Next to her hand on the counter, Eleanor had a tall glass that looked and smelled to be full of water. It was however, only an impostor. The big glass was actually filled to the brim with Sodium Hydroxide; Lye. This product was very dangerous. It was often used in very careful food preparations and house cleaning, but only by those that knew what they were doing. Lye burned the skin when it made contact. It would heat up when exposed to water, but could not be easily distinguished from its harmless counterpart without an accident showing you so.
When ingested, Lye would burn the mouth and throat severely, as well as everything all the way down to the stomach. It was extremely poisonous. But that alone would not ensure a quick death. She needed to inhale some of it as well. If she purposely choked on it, the chemical could get into her lungs. This would cause pulmonary edema, or accumulation of fluid in the lungs, effectively drowning her. Eleanor wanted it to be painless, though this way certainly would be the very opposite. But this was as close as she could get with what she had lying around the house. All she knew was that she wanted to be with Kai.
Come to think of it, she hadn't even thought of what she was really doing. She was killing herself. She was ending her life so that she could be with Kai. It was something she had never thought of before. In fact, Ele could only think of saving him when on her way home… for the most part.
Eleanor ran as far as she could, before her body would allow her to run no more. She had only gone one mile, and already was exhausted. Her whole body was in extreme pain from being worked so hard after a car accident. She was forced to slow down, much to her discontent. Ele needed to find some way to get home faster, or Kai was doomed. It was all her fault after all. If she was a better driver, if she had bought a better car, if she had never met him, he wouldn't have ever been with her in the accident. She was the reason he was in trouble, if not already dead.
That thought caused her to shudder, fear coursing through her body along with the intense pain she felt everywhere. She was still crying heavily as she walked. It took her about forty-five minutes to get to town, which looked to be nearly deserted. "It's all my fault…" Eleanor said to herself, letting the truth sink in. She screwed up, and she killed her single most important friend, her one true love. Slowly her mood changed. She was still crying, but it was now much quieter. As she walked through the dimly lit streets, she decided to change destinations. Rather than going to the police department, she would just go home. Ele had a new plan.
The young girl walked along towards her small apartment near the center of town. She wasn't concerned with saving Kai any longer. He was already dead, she was sure of it. Instead, she was adamant on finding a way to join him. Eleanor only wanted to be with him again, to hold him, to talk to him, to love him.
As Ele turned a corner two blocks from her house, she saw some of her friends walking the other way, on the opposite side of the street. She would normally have wondered what they were doing out so late, but didn't care at all now. Unfortunately for her, they noticed her presence.
"Hey Ele! What are you doing walking alone so late? Where's Kai? Ele? What's up…?" one of them asked. Eleanor ignored them completely, continuing to her house.
"Hmm, I guess she's having a bad night. I wonder if they broke up… Why isn't she driving her junker anyway? I guess she'll tell us about it tomorrow, right?" the same girl wondered aloud to the others, letting Eleanor go right by without a further glance.
Ele continued to walk until she reached her home. She unlocked and opened the door, which lead into a small living room. She turned all the lights on as she went to the back of the apartment, past the door to her room, past the restroom door, and on to the cleaning supply closet in the back of the short hallway. Eleanor opened it up, and looked around for anything she could use. She only seemed to have rags for dusting, air freshener spray, and a vacuum. However, on the very top shelf, she noticed something that would work perfectly for her mission… lye.
Eleanor grabbed the big jug and walked back down the hall, into her kitchen. She grabbed a glass from the cupboard, and unscrewed the lid to the lye. She slowly poured the chemical into her glass, staring intently at it, while her heartbeat quickened. Then she stopped…
Ele stood in her kitchen silently. She put the cap back on the lye, and set it aside. The young girl looked up, and stared at her reflection in the kitchen window. She sat and thought about all that had happened that night; all the pain, all the suffering, all the hope, happiness, fear, despair, pretty much every feeling she had ever had all appeared at some time during the night. Through the course of her train of thought, she once again began to cry.
Well now she was done. No more remembering the past, and no more crying over what could not be changed. Slowly Ele grabbed the glass, and raised it closer and closer to her lips. She took a deep breath, closed her eyes, and prepared to do what was unthinkable only a couple hours ago. She readied herself to drink the whole glass, death now only an inch and a half from her lips.
Suddenly the door to the apartment burst open, startling her. She was both shocked because of what happened, and because of who it was. In the doorway stood Kai, fully alive, though in the light, Eleanor could now see that he was clearly injured pretty badly. The boy saw the glass in her hand, and the jug on the counter. He read the label, and his eyes grew wide. Kai leaped over the couch in his way and lunged for the glass. He grabbed it from Ele's hand and set it on the counter.
The two looked each other over in silence for nearly a minute before uniting in a deep, warm embrace. Ele suddenly once gain thought it was crazy what she was about to do. 'How could I be so stupid, so selfish?' she cried in her head. She was so happy that Kai was alive, but she didn't have a clue how. He looked dead, or very near it when she saw him in the car.
"K-kai, you're alive! But h-how?!"
"Did you think I was dead?" he responded to her as they broke apart.
"W-well, yeah. You looked gone to me. I couldn't even see you breathing," she explained before remembering that it was too dark to tell whether he was or not. "How did you find me here?"
"I woke up about twenty minutes after the crash," Kai started. 'That was about ten minutes after I'd left.' Eleanor thought to herself before he continued. "I couldn't find you anywhere, and started to panic, when I noticed your shirt sleeve in an odd place. It was near the road sign, but that couldn't have happened in the wreck. That meant that you'd went to town to get help… or at least I'd hoped. So I ran as fast as I could back to town. When I arrived, I saw some of your friends walking by and asked if they had seen you at all. They said they saw you about five minutes ago, walking towards home. I really wanted to make sure you were okay, so I followed. I was worried you may have been seriously injured and not have known it. And I still am. We really should go to the hospital. Even if you're fine, I think I have a concussion anyway," Kai finally finished, taking one more glance at the lye on the counter.
Eleanor once again embraced Kai tightly, happy that he was still alive. Hopefully everything would be alright, and they had no serious injuries. "Kai, in case one of use is hurt more than we know, I want to tell you something," she whispered.
"I… I really do love you… with all my life."
"…I love you too," Kai responded gently.
"Hey! Are you two alright?!" someone called from the door. Kai and Ele stepped apart to see that Eleanor's friends were all standing confused in the doorway. "We talked to Kai, and noticed that he was covered in blood… and he still is. Is everything okay?!!!"
"Yeah... everything is perfect," Eleanor responded peacefully with a gentle smile.
Well, that's that. Please review if you would, as it would mean a lot to me. That's about all I have to say, so I hope you liked this :)