so maybe i wont be beautiful.
maybe i'll learn to except it.
(maybe i'll be beautiful in my own way)

you,
you captured in that photos,
things,
--that words couldn't not express would be too cliche--
you captured me.
(how i am?)
how i'd like to be seen sometimes--

oh, i know, i know too well how a picture can be so deceiving.

but maybe, maybe i' could be beautiful,
in my confusment,
in my (rarely captured) melancholy,
my slightly lidded dark brown eyes, straight black lashes,
mouth slightly open, tongue slightly forward
maybe i won't be a classic,
(maybe i'd be a painting)

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oct. 9 '09