while I watch

you turn me into

something indescribable

nightmare while I wake

while I protest

you strengthen it

unwittingly feeding the beast

that grows inside day by day

while I wait

stronger it gets by the hour

ready to devour anything of you

and then I see

this was your plan all along

dragging me along to break me

teaching me to hate me

loving me to spite me

while I watch

me adore you

self-mutilation

is loving you