I look at an old photograph

Back when so often I would laugh

The young me smiles happily

So different than in the mirror I see

Because now my eyes are haunted

Now my clothes are dark and so is my soul

Things never went how I wanted

And now I just don't feel whole

Another picture, another memory

Bitterly a time traveler I become

And I wonder why I feel so numb

Back then life was simple

And yet I had so many more fears

Back then I had fewer reasons,

But I would cry far more tears

So long ago it seems, life wasn't so hard

I didn't have reason to be afraid to love

My heart I didn't have to guard

I look at an old photograph

The memory makes me want to laugh

But at the moment I can barely smile

Back through time I travel, mile after mile

I remember all my old hopes, my old dreams

I remember thinking that life is never what it seems

So why is it so hard suddenly?

Why can I seem to barely be surviving?

Because I remember a time when I was thriving

I stare at an old photograph

And I don't know whether to cry or laugh