|I don't deserve this
Author: wardrobe-monster PM
Sometimes people just don't see all you've done for them, even when it cost you. My 3rd post on this site.Rated: Fiction K+ - English - Hurt/Comfort/Friendship - Words: 452 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 2 - Published: 03-26-10 - Status: Complete - id: 2789576
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I don't deserve this.
I don't deserve your hate.
I don't deserve to be upset
Over things that weren't even about me.
I don't deserve this.
I don't deserve to be afraid
Of what I say
When I'm with you
I don't deserve my words to be twisted
When once upon a time,
When you were all alone,
Those very words were comforting you,
As I held you close,
And stroked your hair,
And listened as you spilled your soul,
And kept your secrets never told.
I don't deserve the stab you've given me,
When I was the only one willing to give you a chance,
The others didn't, and they talk about you,
When you're not around and can't hear the sound,
But I was sticking up for you, right from the start,
Even after every time
You hurt me through the heart,
I just took the blows
And didn't let you know you were hurting me
Because I can take it if that's who you are
And what you do
But I CAN'T take it
When the one time you feel I've done you wrong
And you stab me for it and twist the dagger,
Even though I stood with you for so long
Even though it hurt me
Even though you didn't deserve it
Even though no-one else would have
And you didn't ever say thanks.
I gave up myself for you
Even though you sometimes walked over me.
I let you.
Cause you had it hard.
But I had it worse because of it.
And I won't stand with you anymore.
I won't defend you to the others,
I won't stick up for your side
When it's clear you are to blame.
I won't let you cry on me.
I won't let you walk on me.
I won't let you hurt me.
You once told me you didn't understand
Why I didn't give people what they gave me
You said I should fight back.
Well here I go.
And now I hope you will finally see all I did for you.
Because it will be gone now.
And when you ask me why I'm being such a bitch,
I'll firstly tell you this;
If I was to be
Half the bitch you were to me
You wouldn't be standing here
So strongly still
And that just shows how strong I am
Because I stood through it all-
And secondly, you want to know why?
I'm following your advice.
I'm fighting back.