Author: heart complex PM
It shouldn't have turned out like this..Rated: Fiction T - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Words: 683 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 07-04-10 - Status: Complete - id: 2824885
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I give you a kiss
You shed a tear
I wipe it away with my finger
Caressing your cheek
As you imitate the smile I give you
I turn to walk away
Your voice breaks through your lips
"It would have to have been you
To break my heart
I gave it to you and I trusted you and I loved you and
I just never thought I would find me broken
In your arms.."
I try to find you again
I try to be something for you again
I want to be yours, I want you to be mine
Even if from afar
I see you, bloodied and drunk
I freeze in terror, as you freeze with shock
To see what you've done to yourself, I want revenge
But a voice tells me inside my head
"Is revenge what you feel? For how she's hurting you?
She feels warm inside substance embrace
Just how she felt inside your embrace
Just how you felt, somewhere else."
I take a look at you
Drug infested and dream ridden
You glance up after doing a line
And give me a smug look
As the anger in me grows
A voice screams at me inside my head
"She wouldn't be here if not for you
You shun her into darkness, but
Darkness is where she found you.
She could be with you, at your side, but
She turned to this because you turned away"
I try to love you, I try to get you to stop
As he holds your arm for you
You shoot up again, you shoot a dirty look
As they all do for you
The heart in me breaks, it breaks for you
The shards that break form a voice for you
"Are you jealous? Do you think she trusts you?
She trusted you, but she trusts them so much more
They'll leave her in a blink of an eye,
The needles will hurt her so much worse
But let's face it
They'll stay for as long as she'll need them,
Just like the sex, just like the drugs
Just unlike you."
I try to save you, convince you that you're wrong
Remind you of what we had but as I hold my breath
You hold your pills.
You swallow them slowly, to savor their flavor
And as I still my voice, a voice screams from my heart
"It's so like a sinner to preach about heresy.
You're so quick to judge and tell her what's wrong with her
You'll die before you tell yourself what's wrong with you.
She numbs herself to numb the pain
The pain you gave her."
I lose my mind trying to make you right again
I can smell it all on you, this rotten disgust
You're shaking from the withdrawal
Even though you look so beautiful
You'll need a fix soon, and
As it hits you to realize it's me trying to support
You hit back, as hard as you can.
I fall to the ground, a voice escapes my lips
"The pain you feel can not compare
To what she's been through.
You hate that she's become this, you hate what she's done
And you hate her, but you've given her so much time
To hate you, and you've given her so much reason
For her to think the same…"
I get up to walk away
You wipe the blood away from my cheek
I flinch at your touch,
The very touch I longed to feel
I imitate the smile I gave you so long ago
A tear escapes from my eye
A single voice escapes from our lips
"A love so strong strained by so much
What used to be one is now so many
I can't love you now with how you are
And what I've become. I wish you the best
And I wish you the world
But I could never wish for you