a certain boy
--the certain boy, the boy
of my dreams, the kid i'll tell anything,
the man i want to spend forever
kissing & touching,
hugging & (god forbid i say) loving

a certain word
--my favorite four-letter lie, a promise
i won't ask him to keep (until it's
too) late at night (to take it back)

& a certain cloud of doubt
--because paradise is a l i e
& i know
he doesn't believe in
fairy tales