I shouldn't say it
because I don't mean it.
but I do mean it
you know what I mean?

I shouldn't say it
because saying it would mean
that I meant it
when I said it
to myself
back then.

I shouldn't say it
because if I do
and I don't really mean it
I will have said nothing.

and I don't want to say
nothing at all.
even when I am not
really saying anything at all.