12.29.10

my vision blurred from more than just the
rain hitting the window of my car and i
sat trying to catch my breath

but

instead found myself choking on surfacing
emotions. as tears slid down my cheek
i wondered what was

really

wrong. i sat there having a breakdown
in my car and finally thought to myself
and realized, that maybe

i'm

falling apart and i don't even know it.
my heart could be ripping at the seams,
maybe i'm not

okay.