12. Hope

Luke and his friends ended up tagging with us and since I didn't drive to the mall in my Beatle and in the Jeep instead, I had enough space for everyone so we stopped by my house first.

"I seriously hate you for convincing me to bring all these people in my house" I grumbled at Gabby as she rolled her eyes and smiled at the guys.

"Well, you said you knew Luke so he's friends might not be as bad" she quickly whispered back.

I sighed, whatever.

"Hey, you guys can wait down here as we get ready and watch tv or something. If you need anything you can go ask Rosa who's in the kitchen, she makes the best turkey sandwiches. Just feel at home, but not too much" I laughed nervously as I led them into the tv room.

They all seemed awestruck by the size of my house and the fact that we had TVs practically everywhere. I just shrugged, being used to this when new people come to my house.

"Are you like Hannah Montana living a double life, dude? Your house is sick!" One of Luke's friend who's name I couldn't remember said.

Gabby rolled her eyes, "Maybe she is, who knows. Anyways, we're off boys, don't steal anything cos there's cameras everywhere in this place!"

She winked and dragged me upstairs.

-.-.-

When we got to the party there was already a lot of people there. Gabby decided that we should be a bit late by some weird logic of hers.

But the party looked really fun and I couldn't wait to join the fun.

The boys all dispersed once we entered and I hope they didn't think I was going to look for them to drive them home.

I was glad when we saw a few of our friends from school that I haven't talked to in years!

"Joan, Rachel, Lexus! I'm so glad to see you guys!" Gabby screamed as she reached over to hug them all.

Lexus rolled her eyes. "We saw you like everyday of last week! It's our baby Hope that we haven't seen in forever!"

"Yes, how are you? We've really missed you, love" but not enough to come visit me in a psychotic ward, I added as an after thought.

"I missed you too Rachel. I missed all of you guys. And I've been feeling better, I'll probably be out of there for good when school comes back."

"We all hope so! And Derrick has been asking for you since this party started! I think you should go talk to him." Rachel winked.

Rachel has always been pushy. She was one of those friends that I constantly wonder why I even put up with her. On top of being pushy she was also very fake. She talked shit about Gabby and the rest of the group to me all the time and I'm convinced she talks shit about me too.

I rolled my eyes.

"I'm not interested in Derrick anymore Rach, I told you!"

"Yes, I know but c'mon! He's probably one of the hottest guys here, what's there not to like?"

"I just don't have time for boys. I'm working on fixing myself right now."

She laughed. "You've got to b—"

"Cut it out Rachel. Anyways, I've missed you like you wouldn't believe and you know I would of come to visit you if I wasn't in Punta Cana—which I just came back from, I have a souvenir for you by the way—but now that I'm back I'll dedicate the rest of the summer to visiting my babes as much as possible!"

I smiled at Joan. She was honestly the biggest sweetheart and the most caring friend I have. And she was also gorgeous, the sheer definition of a light skinned goddess.

Her curly hair was dyed black and it was long and wild. She was tall and had a 'to die for' body shape. She was always the one the guys wanted, which was probably why Gabby despised her.

"Yeah, okay, that's cute Joan. Lets go dance!" Gabby said quickly, grabbing us and leading us to the dance floor.

:D:D:D:D:D

We danced practically the whole night and while my friends were getting smashed, I stayed completely sober because I wanted to drive home and I had no intention of sleeping over Junior's house.

But I did still have a blast, I felt free, crazy and for the first time in a very long time,

I was staring to feel like myself again.

I knew I would have to go back to the psych ward on Monday but I didn't care, I didn't think about that. I thought of the fact that I would see Jonathan, he would hold me the whole night or we would watch some lame movie and just enjoy each others company.

And he would be healthy and I'll work 10 times harder to get better and everything would be fine and perfect.

Everything was perfect and from this day on, nothing could go wrong.

Absolutely nothing.

AN:
I'm having an extreme case of writers block, so I provided you guys with this shitty chapter, I hope it makes up for my not updating since new years.

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