Missing you

Monday July 25, 2011

I don't like being here

I'm missing you

I'm missing the home I made in your arms

I'm missing my mom's sarcastic words

My brother's bothersome presence

I'm missing my dad's carefree smile

And I'm missing home

I'm missing you

I wish I could return to those times

Way back when you stilled loved me

I still loved you

And I was home

When your smile made my day better

Your words made my heart shine

But I can't go back

I'm stuck where I am

There is only one way out

But I'm wishing for you back

I'm wishing that things didn't change

That we didn't change

That you didn't fall into the shit you did

That I didn't fall into the shit I did

I wish you had seen sense

I wish I didn't feel the pain

I hate how you ripped my heart to shreds

But still claimed you loved me

I hate how I believed you and let you break me

Again

And again

But none of that matters now

Because I'm missing you

I'm missing the home I made in your arms

I'm missing my loving family who tried to catch me

I'm missing your understanding smile as you took my blade

I'm missing your gorgeous eyes

That I just watch lose its light

I'm missing your brilliantly stupid words

I missing you so much

Though you are right beside me

I'm staring into you lifeless eyes

Knowing this was my fault

I messed it all up

I miss you so much

I whisper taking the blade back

I draw it across my neck

The way you did

I bleed on your white bed sheets

The way you did

I smile softly as I stare at you

The way you did

I die in the arms of my love

The way you did

I'm missing you

I'm missing the home I made in your arms

I'm missing my mom's sarcastic words

My brother's bothersome presence

I'm missing my dad's carefree smile

And I'm missing home

I'm missing you

I'm missing the world

But it was empty without you by my side

I'm missing you no longer