i'm ready to be better, now. i am ready
to exist. i'm ready to fix myself. it's time to
change. to live on my own. i want to
abandon my crutches. the eating disorder,
the depression, the tragedy, the pain.

i suddenly understand that these things? they
are never going to go away on their own.
it's time for me to take charge of my own body,
my own mind.

and i know it's not going to be easy. i know
i'm going to have fallbacks and mistakes and
i'm going to slip into old habits. two steps forward,
one step back.

but i don't care. this time, i'm getting better.
because this time, i'm ready.