You call me up, but you don't know

The fear I feel as I put on my mask

And happily say, 'hello'

I lay me down on a bed of distress

And sometimes it shows through

So you ask, "Are you tired or upset?"

"Exhausted…"

It's not a lie; I'm so tired inside

Of being afraid to live my life

I'm so, so scared that I'll hurt you

And I'm so, so scared you won't mind

Your first taste of romance shouldn't break you

But I worry about it all the time

How can I expect to keep you

When he still puts stars in my eyes?

Am I a criminal dear?

Oh, tell me if I'm just messed up

I wish you could say if I was doing you wrong

But you'll just let me do what I want

I'm so glad that you can't read my mind

I'm too stubborn to just let you through

Oh, wouldn't it kill you if you tried

And all I want is to be good for you

You sweet, clueless, naïve boy

I don't want to tear you apart now

I can't stand these conflicting emotions

That stop me from knowing right or wrong

And who's the person that I run to?

Into whose arms would I jump without fear?

All I want is for him to hold me

But for the first time his embrace

Only causes me to worry more than before

I'm so, so scared that I'll hurt you

And I'm so, so scared you won't mind

Your first taste of romance shouldn't break you

But I worry about it all the time

Am I a criminal dear?
Oh, tell me if I'm just messed up

It was never my intention to do this

I'm sorry I had to be your poisoned cup