I can't look at you.

I struggle to hear your name.

I know you think it's all a game.

You can't do it can you?

You have to keep hurting,

Dad, mum and me.

When granddad passed,

You chose to use it,

For attention.

Well now you have it,

But not from me.

I struggle to look you in the eye,

And that dear grandma,

Is why we are so distant.

I curse and hate what you have done,

But somehow I cannot,

Bring myself to hate you.

Did you ever think?

When you tried to die

Oh how much you made me cry.

Though now I know it was for attention.

There have been too many times,

I have seen my dad's pain.

I watched him cry.

I know deep down you,

You just miss granddad,

And that is part of being human.

I miss the days when you could see,

Just how much you meant to me.

Sometimes I wonder why I do,

But dear grandma I still love you.