Take it Away

I don't understand

Why won't you take it away?

You've always had the chance

But you take your anger and hands

and make the pain worse.

Why won't you take it away?

You push me and torture me.

The guilt and pressure you

slap at my face.

You say I'm the blame

for mother's fate.

Why won't you take it away?

"I'm sorry Daddy"

I ask for your forgiveness.

Still, the marks and scars

prove I have yet received it.

And I still

question myself,

Why won't you take it away?

I have had enough of the torment you

put me through

everyday.

You say I'm a disappointment,

Disgrace, and a failure

of life.

You even questioned God of my existence on

this planet.

Why won't you take it away?

You never showed

me love.

All you gave was hatred,

shame, and physical pain.

Please, someone, take it away!

I would be very happy.

It would be no problem.

It would be the

biggest favor in the

world to me.

Every night I wonder.

The thought lingers

in my head.

How am I the blame?

My birth isn't a reason

for her death.

Maybe I should

see mother, ask,

and hear the truth.

This way I'll be

out of your life.

Maybe, just maybe,

I should take

it away.

Myself.