APOV

You know that feeling that you are walking on air? That the I have been feeling. Like I am stuck on cloud nine. Even though I couldn't be happier about having Brylee in my life it is kind of scary. There is something that when he is around makes me want to squeeze him in my arms and never let of and that freaks me out. All these feelings are swirling around inside of me. I have tried to figure them out. Heck, I ever tried yoga and nothing worked so I have settled myself with the fact that it will reveal itself to me when it's ready. I just hope it is soon because if I ever come off cloud nine it is a long drop.

"Hey." Brylee greeted me. I smiled as he took a seat in front of me. He looked even more handsome than usually. His blue eyes shone happily and he smile seemed to sparkle. He dressed simple today. Jean, a shirt, and his high top NIKES, but he had a sweatshirt today and a umbrella to protect himself against the sheets of rain. Adele and I on the other hand had on jeans, long sleeved tee shirts, and rain boots plus umbrellas. We both hated to be wet. Adele bounced out of her seat and over to him as soon as he had closed him umbrella.

"Brylee!" She squealed and threw herself into his arms. He laughed and gave her a sloppy kiss and a big hug. I felt my heart contract in my chest at his gesture. Brylee has slowly been becoming more and more comfortable with Adele with each passing day. He had even baby sat her for me once. After that, Adele didn't even like Ashley to baby sit her and that was saying something because Ashley was he second favorite person after me.

"So, I think we are about finished with our semester project. All we have to do is type up the scripts, practice it one last time, and then we turn in everything else we have already printed." He informed me then turned his conversation back to Adele. I smiled but it was kind of bittersweet. I was glad we were almost done with the project, but would that mean that Brylee and I wouldn't see each other as often? That thought made me want to curl up in a corner and cry. I shook my head to clear it some.

"That sounds good." The waiter came around and we placed out orders.

"Listen, I was wondering since you and Adele aren't doing anything this weekend did you guys want to come to my house and eat some dinner…" He trailed off and a blush stole across his face. I gasped a little as it dawned on me. He was embarrassed and I have never seen he act this way as long as we have known each other. He has always been so confident, so sure. It made he seem more human. "Maybe watch a movie." He finished while looking at the window and I looked too. A few cars passed now and then, but other than that the street seem to be empty. It was silent for a minute before my voice filled the air. I was laced with happiness and anxiousness.

"Sure Brylee. That's sounds great." He sighed and smiled at me, his body relaxing against the seat. We ate in silence expect for the a few spoken thoughts now and then. When it was time to go Brylee left with a tight hug that made my body tingle all over, a kiss on the cheek that stole my breath even if it was so simple and a hope that maybe one day everything will fall into place.

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The rest of the week flew by. My anxiousness made the week seem shorter that it probably actually was. To pass the time I took Adele to the park and the movies, shopped and bought some new clothes and make up. I cleaned the whole house, washed all the laundry and I even dusted. Dusted! I have never dusted in my life. That called for desperate measures so I confined myself in the library and got all my essays typed for my finals. School was over in two more weeks and I didn't have any classes. Last Friday I was dismissed from them with the directions to work on my essays and turn the in before the semester was out. Thanks to all my free time all those were done turned in and I was out of school for the next month for Christmas break.

So, with nothing to do, bored out of my mind, sitting on my couch with Adele by my side I flipped to the next channel that I already saw the last three flips, but didn't want to watch. Finally I heard, "Mommy I bored." I sighed and turned to T.V. off.

"Me too." I turned to look at her. "What do you want to do?" I asked her. She thought for a minute before smiling.

"Let's go to see Brylee." She said excitedly. It was only Thursday. We weren't suppose to go to Brylee's until Friday around six. I glanced at the clock on the microwave through the kitchen bar. The digital numbers glowed with 7:30. Well it was only a few more hours until Friday. I bit my lip as I contemplated. Finally, I made my decision. Jumping off the couch I turned to Adele and pointed a finger at her.

"Go get up bag and my purse and meet me at the door." She saluted me and then was gone. I shut off all the lights and grabbed my keys. When we had collected everything I drove us to Brylee's house. It was a lot smaller then ours with it's two bedroom and one and a half bath. It didn't matter to me though. I knew that I didn't really earn what I had. It was all my grandfather's money, not mine, and I not afraid to admit it.

Brylee lived in an apartment building that looked sort of run down on the outside, but inside it was really nice. At least I thought so, but he thought differently. I knocked on his door. He opened a few seconds later in just a pair of jeans, water running from his hair, and a toothbrush hanging out of his mouth. My eyes couldn't help but wander down to where his bare skin was exposed. I gasped when I saw his tan and smooth skin and his six pack. Yes, he had a six pack! I almost squealed. His cheeks turned a little pink and I stopped my ogling and looked at his face instead. Staring at him like that was making me cheeks heat up.

"What are you guys doing here? I wasn't expecting you until tomorrow?" He stammered and opened the door wider, offering us in.

"Adele wanted to come early." I explained. Adele spoke up from my side.

"And you too Mommy." She scolded. I blushed and rolled my eyes.

"Thanks for that Adele." She gave me a thumbs up and Brylee's deep laughter filled the room. I shook my head. She is my daughter alright. Brylee started backing up toward the small hallway that I assumed led into the bedroom and bathroom. He held up a finger.

"I'll be right back," I nodded and he disappeared. To pass the time I let Adele go play with her toys. He didn't have much in his place. A couch and loveseat, T.V., a coffee table, and some pictures hung up on the wall. All the pictures were of scenery. That is too bad. I would have really loved to see what his family looked like. Brylee appeared back in the doorway startling from my thoughts. He had a tee shirt on now and I couldn't help the surge of disappointment that ran through me. What was happening to me? He waved his hand toward the couch.

"Want to have a seat?" Adele flew over and Brylee followed.

"So what are you doing over here this early anyhow?" He asked when the lights were dimmed and Adele was sitting criss-crossed on the floor, completely absorbed in the movie. I shook my head completely embarrassed.

"OK," I sighed. "I had nothing else to do and I decided to just come on over." I could feel the heat rush into my cheeks at my confession. He smiled and shook his head. I felt my heart skip a beat.

"It's OK. I probably would have done the same thing." I sighed and swooned. He was sweet trying to make me feel better. We feel silent and both turned our attention to the movie. Well, at least he did. I couldn't pay attention because I was so hyper aware that Brylee was sitting next to me. Ever time he shifted my body grew a little bit hotter from seeing his muscles moving through his white tee shirt. Oh how I wanted to touch those babies! By the end of the movie Adele was passed out with her stuffed bear clutched to her chest. I sighed and smiled. What was I going to do with her.

"She sure is something special isn't she?" I looked over to see Brylee staring at Adele with a soft small on his face.

"Yeah she is. I couldn't ask for anyone better in my life." He shook his head with a far away look on his face.

"I hope that's not true?" His voice was soft as he said it. I moved closer to her and better and our knees brushed against mine.

"What do you mean?" My voice was just as soft.

"I hope that Adele is not the only person you want in your life." His dark eyes pierced through me. My breath caught in my throat and he moved through me. His big hands came up to clasp my throat and his thumbs moved over the apple of my cheeks.

"What are you doing?" I whispered. He was close now. His lips barley brushed mine, making me whole body tingle.

"What I have been wanting to do since that day in your apartment." I didn't get a chance to respond because then his lips were moving with mine. I couldn't stop myself as my hands moved from the awkward position on my lap up to bury themselves in his soft blond hair. When it reached the ends of it I tugged unconsciously and a deep moan rumbled through his throat making a shiver shot down my spine. He hands moved from my neck to my waist where he pulled me onto his lap. My hands immediately looped around his neck and pulled his lips tighter to mine.

After a few minutes we both had to pull back to breath and when we did you could hear how heavy it was echoing around the room. He rested his forehead on mine and smiled that sexy smirk of his. "Wow, that was way better then I'd imagined it in my mind." I let out a breathy laugh and regained a normal breathing pattern. Brylee did the same a few seconds later.

"You imagined it in my mind?" I smiled formed on my face at the thought of him thinking about me like that. It meant he was interested in me as more than a friend.

"Yeah. Does that freak you out?" I shook my head and lifted my forehead so I could see his eyes. They weren't the ice blue I was used too. They were darker somehow, more clouded. I was sure mine didn't look any better.

"No not really. It kind of makes me happy that you think of me that way." I blushed a little as the words slipped out of my mouth.

"What way?" The words tumbled out of my mouth before I could stop them.

"In a non-friendly way." He smiled as I buried my head in this shoulder and shook my head. I couldn't believe I just did that. He smoothed my hair back from my face.

"Don't be embarrassed Alyssa. I think of you all the way that time." He admitted honestly. I raised my head to meet his eyes.

"Really?" I asked. I could feel my embarrassment slowly fade away and curiosity take its place. He nodded his head.

"Yep. I think your are seriously sexy woman and the fact that you don't even seem to know makes it even hotter." He winked at me and I giggled a little bit.

"I have always thought of myself as sort of plain." It was true. Ever since I was little girl I always that there was nothing special about me. I knew that I was prettier than most girls, but nothing more than that. He shook his head and rolled his eyes.

"I completely disagree. You're are beautiful and someday I will get you to see that and when you do you're going to freak when you see how freaking sexy you are." I rolled my eyes, but I could help the pleasure the settled in my body at what he thought of me. I feel like a little schoolgirl that just got told her crush likes her back. This is ridiculous! I have to get a grip on myself. I can't end up like I did with Jason. That thought brought all my worries to the forefront of my mind. What if he just wanted me for the sex? What if he didn't really want me like I wanted him. I winced and pulled away from Brylee. I couldn't be near him right now. I had to think clearly. He eyebrows pulled together when he saw my movements.

"What's wrong?" I shook my head and turned my head away from him. I didn't want to tell him the negative things I was thinking about.

"Come on. Talk to me." I told me softly and that even made it worse. I shook my head, bit my lip, and tried to stop my eyes from filling with tears. It didn't work too well.

"I don't want you to see me like this." He smoothed my hair back over my shoulder and planted a kiss on my cheek. My eyes filled even more.

"Aren't we supposed to be there for each other through thick and thin." I let out a very un-lady like snort.

"You make it sound like are we already married." I could feel him shrug behind me so I turned to face him; watery eyes and all.

"Marriage maybe, but I would like to start with dating first." I gasped. He wanted to be my boyfriend!

"I don't know…" I bit my lip and shook my head. He sighed and put his finger under my chin, forcing me to look at him.

"What is holding you back?" He asked his voice barley over a whisper. He wrapped his arm around my shoulder and settled my against his side. The tears slipped out before I could stop them, but he let them fall this time. He seemed to know that I needed to get this out.

"Because I don't want what happened to me and Jason to end up with me and you. I don't want another kid who will never met their dad." I choked up on that last bit, but this time I didn't cry for me I cried for Adele. She would never have a father her life. Someone to question her first date or teach her how to fish when she doesn't want too. I cried harder at the thought. Brylee kissed the top of my head and rocked us gently.

"I would never do that to you Alyssa. I know you probably have you doubts now, but please, give me a chance. Don't lump me with Jason. I can be better than that. I know I can. You just have to give me the chance!" He spoke fiercely and I couldn't help but believe him. He was right. I did have my doubts, but I should give him a chance. Even though my heart is torn and tattered it still knows what I want and right now it's telling me to give Brylee everything and that is exactly what I intend to do. Even though I had my doubts some where in the back of my mind that he would stay. Through the sunshine or the rain, he would stay and I prayed to God he would. For Adele and I both.

He asked me to stay with him that and I did. So together, wrapped in each other arms, we fell asleep together with Adele sleeping in front of the T.V. I felt safe as I slept. Like no harm could come to me. I hoped this feeling never went away, but I knew as long as I had Brylee it never would.

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