A/N Okay I know that this poem jumps around a bit, but I hope you like it all the same.

-XxDarknessRisingxX-

Would Anyone Care

If I wasn't here

Tomorrow

Would anybody bother

Trying to figure out

Why

I doubt it

People hate me

I know I don't matter

I stay alive

Just to spite them

And

Because

I'm not a person to take the easy way out

That's just not me

I don't know if I can

Go on much longer

Hatred from acquaintances

Is bearable

But

Whenever your parents

Abandon you

And put you up for adoption

Before you were even born

That's hard to live with

But I would still

Prefer this

Over blissful ignorance

Because

This way

Nothing but betrayal

From a loved one

Shall ever hurt me this way again

This is hard to live with

But

Not impossible

What hurts the most

Is that

When I try to be better

And

Change for them

I get punished for it

Every nice gesture comes with

Pain, loss, and more loneliness

So I finally stopped caring

Last year

Nothing in this world

Or the next

Mattered to me anymore

It was like

Watching myself

From third-person

And

Even though

I found someone

Who

I can love without fear

I'm still

Broken inside

But

No one sees this

I keep it all bottled up

Inside

Just waiting for something

To make it burst

Aside from that

I still have the same

Personality traits

From before

I'm cold, uncaring to most, hurtful, and sadistic

And

I'm hated for it

Everyday

I see their glares

Their clenched fists

And I try

Once more to change

Cause now

I have a reason to

But they just won't let me

Maybe no one would miss me

If I was gone

Scratch that

I know they wouldn't miss me

Even the person I love

Would move on after about a week

Maybe if I left she would be happier

She probably would

But

I'm also a selfish person

And since leaving her

Voluntarily

Would hurt me deeply

And because

Leaving would be the easy way out

I guess I won't

I'll stay and tough it out

And

Maybe one day

I'll find

Someone

Besides her

That would care if I left

Just maybe