Not the jolly holiday short you're expecting. Written Christmas Eve 2011.

The holidays aren't merry
No longer a "happy" Christmas
I reminisce about the years
When things weren't like this...

When I was young and fragile
Like an ornament on the tree
When I spent all December
Wondering what Santa would bring me.

When I'd eat sweets all Christmas Eve
And await Santa by night
When I'd wake up Christmas morning
Before the world had seen the light.

When just the thought of Christmas
Warmed me to the very bone
But now, with Christmas comes the cold
That chills my heart of stone.

I wish I could go back
When I built snowmen on the lawn
They say you never know
Just what you have until it's gone.

And now with the fights, the chaos,
All the jolliness we lack
I know that I'd give anything
To have my Christmas back.