Replaceable

I once said that I liked you,

But now my tears speak another truth.

The ones falling onto this paper

Say you're just another boy,

But the ones I try to hold back

Say I wish you were more than just that.

I wish there were more to us than what met the eye

I gave my all to you, and you the same

But now that I'm sitting here, I realize I was just your momentary toy.

I know it's not you I like, but the old you.

That boy who'd look at me like I wasn't one to avoid.

All the time we spent together means nothing.

I try so hard to get it all back,

But why I'll never know.

I know you're not good for me,

Just there to bring me harm,

But I can't help to think of the better times.

The times when I was just a five

And would easily skin my knees to for a chance to be with you.

Now that we're much older and the stakes are much higher than cuts and bruises,

Now that my heart is the only thing on the line,

I don't know if you're quite worth it

Because I don't think band-aids will fix my broken heart.

I'm so sorry to just give up, but you're just another boy.

I always thought it would be so hard

To speak the words "You're just another boy"

Because you always meant so much more to me.

It's ok because I now I know my place next to you

Is easily replaceable for the next girl in line.

The girl you'll make feel oh so special.

You are replaceable just as much as I am.

The only difference is,

I will only let ones who show me what love truly is take your spot.

Those who don't treat me like I'm not worth anything.

Those who make me feel warm in their arms.

Those like the ones I have now.