i want you to

damage me, laugh when

old black and white movies

play across my wide eyes, untangled lashes,

following your body, corpse, around the room as best i can

i try to find you with my eyes

but you pierced them, shocked me with your

nonexistent love

perhaps i was expecting too much

but still i

want you to

damage me, leave marks

and never let them

fade away

(bruises i want you to

help me keep, bleed to death

internally,

eternally.)