I wasn't looking for a jump shot rebound

Score, still I found you

I wasn't looking for anything warm, soft, hot

At night, but I fell in you

And everything you made me want again

Made me hurt and wonder and dream again

And it was nice for a bit

Smiling that soft smile and biting my lip

I started pumping up, primping up, trimming up

Wanting everything right

I tried to tear down all these doubts

Fighting purple

Bruises, all over me for you

I let the pieces fall without

Sweeping the floor

This OCD, lonely girl making an effort to unwind

I didn't want to rush

And fly past lines I've crossed and been buried beneath

I wanted it all to come together

Without seams,

So I waited

Time slipping, sliding, moving

But you never found me in that place

Where everything is

Necessary

And bright

And my company was never more than cheap grins and

Punch lines, I get sick of

Being the one who makes you laugh.